mranderson
November 5th, 2010, 11:43 PM
Im not sure if this goes here but if it doesnt then sry
Well yeh, My family has always told me i was an angry child and stuff like that and told me about times where i got rly mad when i was a little munchkin.
But in the past few days, ive had these crazy moments where i just go insane, i want to destroy everything in site, i was to rip my hair out, take a knife and stab myself, and i mean that in a way that cutitng myself wouldnt be fast enough , i just want to take a knife and be as careless as possible and make myself bleed cause it feels like that would make me feel better. So far in the past 2 or 3 days ive punch a hole in my wall, made my knuckles bleed and ripped my hair out. I am usualy a very calm and quiet person, i barely talk at all. But whenever i get in to these situations i cant control myself. Every time this happens to me it always has to do with my parents and 90% of the time my mom. I cant stand her, I dont hate her, shes my mom, but i hate almost everything about her, me and her are completly the opposite and she doesnt let me or my brother express are selfs how we wantt to, She wants us to be her perfect child and do everything we say. I dont think my brother even notices or cares. Hes always bin the good child, theyve always loved him more, i know it I havnt done anything with my life, and im just goin down a worse path. I barely tlak to my family. And if i am, all were doing is fighting...I think about running away every day, but idk were i would go, what i would do for food or anything, plus im in grade 10 so i would never even get half way through highschool.idk, i just want to end all this shit.
Well yeh, My family has always told me i was an angry child and stuff like that and told me about times where i got rly mad when i was a little munchkin.
But in the past few days, ive had these crazy moments where i just go insane, i want to destroy everything in site, i was to rip my hair out, take a knife and stab myself, and i mean that in a way that cutitng myself wouldnt be fast enough , i just want to take a knife and be as careless as possible and make myself bleed cause it feels like that would make me feel better. So far in the past 2 or 3 days ive punch a hole in my wall, made my knuckles bleed and ripped my hair out. I am usualy a very calm and quiet person, i barely talk at all. But whenever i get in to these situations i cant control myself. Every time this happens to me it always has to do with my parents and 90% of the time my mom. I cant stand her, I dont hate her, shes my mom, but i hate almost everything about her, me and her are completly the opposite and she doesnt let me or my brother express are selfs how we wantt to, She wants us to be her perfect child and do everything we say. I dont think my brother even notices or cares. Hes always bin the good child, theyve always loved him more, i know it I havnt done anything with my life, and im just goin down a worse path. I barely tlak to my family. And if i am, all were doing is fighting...I think about running away every day, but idk were i would go, what i would do for food or anything, plus im in grade 10 so i would never even get half way through highschool.idk, i just want to end all this shit.