It didn't even cut me?

[suicidenote.]

Okay, so me and my boyfriend broke up last night.
I started crying deliriously and I couldn't make myself stop, so I just decided to get in the shower.
I haven't ever felt pain like this before, and it is really taking a horrible toll on me and my life.
So when I got in the shower, I wanted to try cutting my arm with my razor.
At first, I didn't have the balls to do it, but when I finally did, i slid the razor sideways on my arm, but it DIDN'T cut me!
So I started crying even harder and I didn't even try it again. . .
Idk what would have happened if it actually did cut me. . .

[ShatteredWings]

shaving razors make terrible tools IME
but it's good it didn't work, really.

Time for other ways to cope with it.

[UnknownError]

Well done on not trying again. :hug3:
Im sorry to hear about your boyfriend. :(
Ive tried cutting before, but it just wouldn't work, like what you described.
I suppose its a good thing, it proves your strong. :)
Message me if you ever want to talk.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

ive had the same problem with a hunting quality knife...its prob for the best tho hun :hug: im very sorry about your boyfriend you deserve better

[suicidenote.]

I've cut only once before.
& it was a very small cut, so I don't really know how it feels.
I thought cutting my arm with the razor might make me feel somewhat better and in control of myself and my emotions.
But i was scared to do it again after it didn't work the first time.
I just don't know what else to do. . .

[UnknownError]

I've cut only once before.
& it was a very small cut, so I don't really know how it feels.
I thought cutting my arm with the razor might make me feel somewhat better and in control of myself and my emotions.
But i was scared to do it again after it didn't work the first time.
I just don't know what else to do. . .

If you've only just started you can still stop before it becomes an addiction.
Why dont you try drawing or writing? :)

[georgiamay]

Like the others have said, no matter how frustrating it might seem, it's for the best.
It's happened to me a few times now, but it was more along the lines of me being too hysterical to keep my hand steady enough to do any damage. But again, that was for the best too.

Cutting with the razor might have made you feel better at the time, but in the long run it would have made things worse, because then you'd have to cover it up, and soon you might become dependent on pain whenever you hit a bump in the road.

It's not worth it hun, trust me. After a while, it's not you in control anymore, it's cutting that's in control. Try not to do it again. Distract yourself in some way whenever you have an urge to cut.

I'm always here if you need someone to talk to hun, just PM me :hug3:

[districtnowhere]

from personal experience i recommend to just scream it out loud.. or into a pillow. plus music always helps.

[spfreak]

sorry to hear about your break up :(. but be thankful you didnt cut through the skin. Don't start cutting because you may have a really hard time stopping!

[Drivenbyjeter2]

Okay, so me and my boyfriend broke up last night.
I started crying deliriously and I couldn't make myself stop, so I just decided to get in the shower.
I haven't ever felt pain like this before, and it is really taking a horrible toll on me and my life.
So when I got in the shower, I wanted to try cutting my arm with my razor.
At first, I didn't have the balls to do it, but when I finally did, i slid the razor sideways on my arm, but it DIDN'T cut me!
So I started crying even harder and I didn't even try it again. . .
Idk what would have happened if it actually did cut me. . .


OMG Ashley :((( Please please dont do that...you know I still love you inside and I'm never leaving you. Please ashy, please dont!

[Syvelocin]

shaving razors make terrible tools IME
but it's good it didn't work, really.

Time for other ways to cope with it.

Not trying to discuss methods, but the last time I went to the juvenile ward, there was this girl who had gotten one blade of a shaving razor and ended up cutting a little too deep, had to tell a counselor, and get stitches. Another girl who I met a month ago or so had been in the hospital for a suicide attempt. She had at least 20 stitches in each arm. Shaving razors can be terrible or destructive depending on how you use them apparently. That's what I use, and mine are medium-deep. I'm, again, not trying to advise anyone to use one. My intentions are good, as when I was first starting, going too deep scared the crap out of me. Even if it's fear that makes you back out, it's so much better than having given yourself this problem to live with for the rest of your life.

However, it's amazing that you could avoid that sort of thing. Quite a stroke of luck for the first attempt not breaking skin, and then being able to not continue until it does (like I did...) Razors are not the tool you want to be using, if any at all, because they're sharp. They give you some nasty scars that you'll have to live with for the rest of your life, being asked by everybody how you got them. And when you're using razors, you can't use an excuse like "the cat did it" since that won't convince anyone.

Good job, and good luck for the future hun.

[1_21Guns]

Call it a sign, and count yourself lucky.
It wouldn't have undone what was done, it would have left you with a scar to remind you.
That's what would've happened.
And you're so much better than that hun.
You'll get through it, and there are better ways of coping.
Best of luck, and feel free to PM me if you ever need to chat :hug3:

[Mike321]

Sorry to hear about what happened between you and your boyfriend
But cutting wont take the emotional pain away for long, so its a good thing that it didnt cut you
Its really not worth it, even if it does seem like it at the time, it becomes very addictive.
You can get through this, feel free to PM/VM me if you need to talk

[publicsecrets]

I've got upwards of fifty cuts (varying from about a centimetre long to about fifteen) on my upper thighs, and take it from me, it is not something you want to grow to rely on. Think of it like wearing foundation; if you don't wear it, you won't need it, it's only once you start using it that you find you can't go without it. I'm desperately trying to quit for the sake of my best friend; find somebody who you can trust and tell them how you're feeling. Please resist, it's not worth it babe :)