Getting Down with the Sickness of Depression

[Immortal Love]

I just feel sick.
My actual stomach hurts from it all.
From what? From being hurt so much.
1 minute he says he loves me, next he is swearing at me. Calling names.
It hurts so much, I cry so easy now. For anything. I feel so down. Blue.
I feel like everythings been sucked out of me. Leaving me to die slowly. Like a dried up rose.
I contemplate thoughs of suscide more then ever now, along with self harm.
Should I? Should I not? Constant questions that flood my head.
I just want to not be depresed anymore. No more hurting. Just... peace.

Will this ever happen?

It sure feels like it won't...

[1_21Guns]

It will end someday hun, until then it probably will feel like a never ending cycle, but you're strong enough to get through it.
Maybe you need to talk to him about that, see if theres a reason, if he's just doing it for the sake of it, he mustn't love you all that much.
Self harm will aid nothing, and neither will suicide.
You have a whole life ahead of you, and even though it probably doesn't look like it's worth living for now, you never know what's in the future.
Good luck hun, PM me if you need to talk.
:hug3: