So...

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I don't know if this is the right place to put this but to be quite honest. I don't really care.

I really don't know what's up. I'm really struggling with everything. Monday I had two near panic attacks, yesterday i nearly had one again. Last friday I had one...and I don't even know why but...

And I'm sleeping 7-8 hours a night and I still wake up tired, all I want to do is sleep.

I;m really close to snapping. My temper is really short at the moment. I shouted at one of my friends on Monday, scared the shit out of her. I hated that I did that, but I couldn't help it.

And I don't even know why I'm posting this to be honest. Guess I just need a rant.

Boyfriend thinks I should go to see a doctor about it. But, I think I should go. but, I don't think I'd be able to.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

And I know my problems are practically non-existent to everyone else's, but, hey I'm selfish and a bitch. Always have been and doubt I'm ever gonna change.

[nick]

I've been going through a bad patch with depression. I dont exactly get panic attacks but when I get really bad I kind of hyperventilate. I went to see my doctor a few weeks back and to be honest I didnt believe that anything he could give me would help, but the way I saw it there was nothing to lose from trying. He prescribed me some tablets which have made an enormous difference. Its not perfect, but I'm a hell of a lot better than I was. So I would encourage you to put some trust in your doctor. Like I said, what is there to lose?

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I understand what you mean but I don't how to tell them what's up, I struggle telling my boyfriend what's up and my parents don't even know what's been going on with me and that I'm thinking about going to the doctors etc, but if I can't talk to them, how am I meant to talk to a complete stranger for help? :/