Fiction
November 2nd, 2010, 03:38 PM
As i said, highly triggering for cutters so don't read it if your gonna get triggered...
Both posotive and negative feedback is greatly appreciated :)
I tried to approach this in a slightly different way... which a bit of a twist but i'm not sure it worked. I didn't spend long on this so don't expect a masterpiece :P Thanks for reading :)
The room was dark, all except for a small strip of light perfectly spotlighting him. His chiselled features, harsh and unforgiving, were emphasised even more by the dim light. I felt a tingling in my arms, as my mind whispered for me to do it. He was the only one who understood, the only one that knew what I felt, the only one that knew how to cure it. The tingling now a pulsation, the whispering gradually getting louder until it was a screaming at me. A scream that filled not only my mind, but my entire existence. I could feel my heart beating, faster and faster as my breathing became shallow. I was trying my best, I really was but the screaming was ordering me to do it. My whole body tensed as I tried to ignore it, but over and over it screamed… do it! Do it! DO IT! My body began shaking as I tried to resist but it was just too much. The screaming, the shaking, I needed it. I began to use my nails to claw at my arm but it wasn’t enough, it wasn’t nearly enough. Nothing, not even myself, could stop me now … I reached to grab him, and in one swift movement, the damage was done.
The pain jolted through me, as though I had been awoken from a night mare. The release was immediate. My mind was no longer screaming, just enjoying. My body no longer shaking or tense, but calm. The blood began to flow… stroking my skin as it fell. Such a brilliant, beautiful red against my paper white skin. My mind fixated it’s self on the gory mess in front of me, the scarlet liquid now pouring out my arm, that I had so craved. I breathed a sigh of relief and for a moment, I felt nothing but calm.
What more could I want? Someone that’s always there, someone that always has the answer and someone that I was truly in love with.
Both posotive and negative feedback is greatly appreciated :)
I tried to approach this in a slightly different way... which a bit of a twist but i'm not sure it worked. I didn't spend long on this so don't expect a masterpiece :P Thanks for reading :)
The room was dark, all except for a small strip of light perfectly spotlighting him. His chiselled features, harsh and unforgiving, were emphasised even more by the dim light. I felt a tingling in my arms, as my mind whispered for me to do it. He was the only one who understood, the only one that knew what I felt, the only one that knew how to cure it. The tingling now a pulsation, the whispering gradually getting louder until it was a screaming at me. A scream that filled not only my mind, but my entire existence. I could feel my heart beating, faster and faster as my breathing became shallow. I was trying my best, I really was but the screaming was ordering me to do it. My whole body tensed as I tried to ignore it, but over and over it screamed… do it! Do it! DO IT! My body began shaking as I tried to resist but it was just too much. The screaming, the shaking, I needed it. I began to use my nails to claw at my arm but it wasn’t enough, it wasn’t nearly enough. Nothing, not even myself, could stop me now … I reached to grab him, and in one swift movement, the damage was done.
The pain jolted through me, as though I had been awoken from a night mare. The release was immediate. My mind was no longer screaming, just enjoying. My body no longer shaking or tense, but calm. The blood began to flow… stroking my skin as it fell. Such a brilliant, beautiful red against my paper white skin. My mind fixated it’s self on the gory mess in front of me, the scarlet liquid now pouring out my arm, that I had so craved. I breathed a sigh of relief and for a moment, I felt nothing but calm.
What more could I want? Someone that’s always there, someone that always has the answer and someone that I was truly in love with.