Cleansing

[Mattyboy2]

I don't know if this is a disorder, I guess the fact that i'm recognising what i'm doing is bad I can take solace in but anyway...

I gained some money and a bad way, something i posted about but don't want to talk about. I wanted to use the money to treat myself, something that could easily be gotten rid of but something nice.

I chose food, I chose cake. It sounds so stupid, so pathetic i don't know why i'm even bothering posting this. I ate it all hoping that it would take away the filth and grime that i felt for doing what i did. But it didn't i could just feel it clogging my insides, choking my body..... So i drank a pint of salt water and threw it all up.

I havn't eaten for ages, i don't eveb remember when i stopped, just drinking water and juice hoping that i can get clean but i feel disgusting.

My auntie and uncle are coming over this week and we are having a big meal for Guy Fawkes Night...How can i make myself feel right? How can i make it okay to eat this friday?

[Fiction]

Well, can you give us a rough idea of how long you've not been eating. Days? Weeks? months?
Are you obsessed with your weight or appearance?
And it really would be helpful to know what you did. You don't have to post it here you can pm me if you want.
As for feeling right you just have to realise that not eating will not solve any of your problems, it will only cause more.
As i said above, feel free to pm me if you want to talk.

[Mattyboy2]

I wouldn't say i'm obsessed with weight or my appearance. I like to look good just like everyone else but i wouldn't say its a problem.
It's only been a couple days that i havn't eaten properly. I can feel my stomach protesting but everytime i go to eat i just feel physically sick and i can't keep it down.

[Fiction]

I used to get this alot when i was upset, I wouldn't eat at all for a few days but after a while it always went away. It doesn't seem like you have an eating disorder, but just that because your upset you can't eat and this is fairly common. If you still can't eat in the next few days then you need to find a way to make yourself feel better about yourself, such as correcting whatever it is you did wrong, or trying to make yourself feel less guilty about it.
Let me know how you get on :)