benjininja
October 30th, 2010, 12:48 AM
So I liked him all summer, it's now almost november and i really met him in i'd say May. At the time, we met at auditions for the school play. Though (without sounding creepy) i noticed him before because he had lunch the same time as me, so i'd noticed him in the lunch room
But I finally met him at auditions, and we ended up both getting leads. So now we've been rehearsing for about 8 weeks and the shows are next week, so we're together EVERY day for about 4 hours after school. But over the summer, i started crushing on him, and actually broke up with my gf because i felt bad. i ended up texting him randomly like "hey, this is really awk but i like you..." and he replied with "yeah that's a bit awk"
my friend colin thinks maybe that doesn't mean "i don't like you" because he's rather feminine. I mean he has adorable hair, he's so cute in general. he wears pretty much all purple, all the time. he has bright blue (and bright purple) skinny jeans.
I think I may be in love, or something.
Thing is, he's in love with this girl he got to know at homecoming (they juked and he basically fell in love with her) and so that's awkward. plus i told him but we ended up getting closer than ever after maybe 3 weeks of no talking. now he's slept over, and i spent the night at his place, and we just went to the movies tonight. my friend Aleks told me "Ben, life is short. just pin him up against a wall and kiss him..."
part of me wants to do it.
another part of me wants to just tell him (again)
and another part wants to do nothing
let's weigh the options! pinning him to a wall: possible charges of sexual assault, completely ruining our friendship, scaring him, frightening people in school (my school has 4000 people in it). moreover, it would be his first real kiss, that wasn't on stage or in a game of truth or dare. i don't want to steal something special like that from him. i just want him happy
i could tell him how i feel, but haven't i already done that? sort of. now, i want to kiss him. then i just liked him. now it's even stronger. we've grown so close this year. i can't go a day without hugging him. i need him, he's like my drug. and i care about him so much. when he's sad, i'm sad. i can't live if he's upset. and i want to be like:
"Taylor...there's nobody i can think of who cares about u as much as i do. i really want you to be happy. and you lament every day the fact that you have no one to be intimate with...but if anyone cares about you enough to give you your first kiss, and let it mean something, it's me. please, let me try to make you happy"
that's what i'd say.
or, i could do nothing. the easy option!
what do you guys think? i could really use some help.
he's a grade below me and theres about a 1.5 year age difference. but he's beautiful...=/
But I finally met him at auditions, and we ended up both getting leads. So now we've been rehearsing for about 8 weeks and the shows are next week, so we're together EVERY day for about 4 hours after school. But over the summer, i started crushing on him, and actually broke up with my gf because i felt bad. i ended up texting him randomly like "hey, this is really awk but i like you..." and he replied with "yeah that's a bit awk"
my friend colin thinks maybe that doesn't mean "i don't like you" because he's rather feminine. I mean he has adorable hair, he's so cute in general. he wears pretty much all purple, all the time. he has bright blue (and bright purple) skinny jeans.
I think I may be in love, or something.
Thing is, he's in love with this girl he got to know at homecoming (they juked and he basically fell in love with her) and so that's awkward. plus i told him but we ended up getting closer than ever after maybe 3 weeks of no talking. now he's slept over, and i spent the night at his place, and we just went to the movies tonight. my friend Aleks told me "Ben, life is short. just pin him up against a wall and kiss him..."
part of me wants to do it.
another part of me wants to just tell him (again)
and another part wants to do nothing
let's weigh the options! pinning him to a wall: possible charges of sexual assault, completely ruining our friendship, scaring him, frightening people in school (my school has 4000 people in it). moreover, it would be his first real kiss, that wasn't on stage or in a game of truth or dare. i don't want to steal something special like that from him. i just want him happy
i could tell him how i feel, but haven't i already done that? sort of. now, i want to kiss him. then i just liked him. now it's even stronger. we've grown so close this year. i can't go a day without hugging him. i need him, he's like my drug. and i care about him so much. when he's sad, i'm sad. i can't live if he's upset. and i want to be like:
"Taylor...there's nobody i can think of who cares about u as much as i do. i really want you to be happy. and you lament every day the fact that you have no one to be intimate with...but if anyone cares about you enough to give you your first kiss, and let it mean something, it's me. please, let me try to make you happy"
that's what i'd say.
or, i could do nothing. the easy option!
what do you guys think? i could really use some help.
he's a grade below me and theres about a 1.5 year age difference. but he's beautiful...=/