Is this normal

[the8bitter]

I think I might be in love with these two girls. And, lately I've been having thoughts of slicing open a cut in my chest, and chiseling their names into it. Or, maybe letting the blood splatter onto a paper plate, and using the blood to write their names somewhere hidden and secret. Is this normal...or am I slowly going mad? There's nothing I can do about my infatuations, because I know they would never accept me for who I am or want too much to do with me. This would be my way of ridding my soul of them, so I can strive forward and perhaps forget the concept of love or infatuation all together...at least, that's what I think. It's getting to be very painful, the emotions. I ended up crying myself to sleep over women on multiple occasions, and have (but no longer, due to assholes intervening and calling social workers and child abuse on my mom) cut myself over it. I really don't know anymore, but that is what I want to do. :/

[1_21Guns]

:arrow: cutting and self harm

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Look, there isn't such thing as normal, but this is a destructive way to showlove, and you need to understand that it would do no good. There are surely better way to express your love to them\yourself. Find alternatives. We all have sometimes "strange" wants but it doesn't mean we're going to do them.

[Fact]

I think I might be in love with these two girls. And, lately I've been having thoughts of slicing open a cut in my chest, and chiseling their names into it. Or, maybe letting the blood splatter onto a paper plate, and using the blood to write their names somewhere hidden and secret. Is this normal...or am I slowly going mad? There's nothing I can do about my infatuations, because I know they would never accept me for who I am or want too much to do with me. This would be my way of ridding my soul of them, so I can strive forward and perhaps forget the concept of love or infatuation all together...at least, that's what I think. It's getting to be very painful, the emotions. I ended up crying myself to sleep over women on multiple occasions, and have (but no longer, due to assholes intervening and calling social workers and child abuse on my mom) cut myself over it. I really don't know anymore, but that is what I want to do. :/

You sound like you're feeling powerful emotions from a lot of places and aren't quite sure what to do with them.
First of all, as the guy before me said, cutting yourself isn't going to solve anything. It will make you more emotionally stressed.
You need to find another way of channeling/healing your pain.
It's good that you realise what you're feeling isn't normal, that's always a start.

I'm not sure what to recommend, but there are many different ways of letting your emotions out or combating them without harming anyone (including yourself) or necessarily getting upset. You need to find what works for you.

Hope this helped.

[Sith Lord 13]

The simple fact is that nothing having to do with cutting is "normal". That said, it is extremely understandable. Love is a very powerful emotion and drives us to a lot of things. Unfortunately, not all of the things are in our best interests, and cutting is one of those. Cutting causes more problems than it solves. It's like a drug addiction. It starts with by trying to deal with a problem and just ends up giving you another one.