Damn It

[the8bitter]

I am so sick and fucking tired of living like a god-damned loser every single fucking day. There is no damn hope for me...I will never find a future or love. Why the hell couldn't I be like other kids...WHY THE FUCK WAS I EVEN CREATED, IF ALL I WAS MEANT TO FEEL IS INFERIOR AND UN-FUCKING-LOVED. Nobody takes me serious. I want to fucking blow my ugly face off with a rifle. KILL ME NOW, YOU FUCKING UNREASONABLE GODS...YOU HAVE NO DAMN PURPOSE FOR ME, SO WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL HERE? YOU MAKE ME SIT AND WATCH OTHERS FALL IN LOVE AND BE HAPPY, AND MAKE DAMN SURE I NEVER WILL! HAVE SOME MERCY! >:(

...Sorry, I had to get that out.

[aussiecasper]

You need to chill out first of all. your not alone,im like you too but. unhappy, feel inferior, im a socialy akward, and insecure. i have had suicidal thoughts. iv cut myself. ive sat in my bath tub with a gun in my lap thinking about my life. honestly i have, and it was one of my darkest days. but honestly your going though what is the worst 10 years of most peoples life. killing yourself dosent solve your problems or make you feel better it makes you feel nothing. just a lifeless waste of 80 years of what could be happiness if you just try. put yourself out there, find love find friendship dont wait for it to find you. when you relize that you holding yourself back, that you are your biggest critic, that your just downing yourself by thinking this way you can break free and move on to a happier life.

hope yo can find happy days. just hang in there alright.:)

[Fact]

You need to chill out first of all. your not alone,im like you too but. unhappy, feel inferior, im a socialy akward, and insecure. i have had suicidal thoughts. iv cut myself. ive sat in my bath tub with a gun in my lap thinking about my life. honestly i have, and it was one of my darkest days. but honestly your going though what is the worst 10 years of most peoples life. killing yourself dosent solve your problems or make you feel better it makes you feel nothing. just a lifeless waste of 80 years of what could be happiness if you just try. put yourself out there, find love find friendship dont wait for it to find you. when you relize that you holding yourself back, that you are your biggest critic, that your just downing yourself by thinking this way you can break free and move on to a happier life.

hope yo can find happy days. just hang in there alright.:)


↑ exactly.
The only thing stopping you, is yourself. Think about it. If you can figure out how to get yourself to be loved (most people say you gotta love yourself first, which clearly you don't from reading your upset rant).

With regards to your part about having no purpose, I know, it seems that way. That is why you make yourself a purpose. You achieve things you've always wanted to achieve. You change other people's lives - it gives you a purpose when you achieve things and try.

Hope this helps.

[steve1234]

Don't apologise. Getting your anger out this way is a good step I suppose. Its better than getting into a fight with someone.

I sometimes have similar thoughts to you, and at the moment I am always thinking about suicide. But, I have realised this is of course a bad idea. I am always thinking it, but it would really hurt the low number of friends and family I have, plus I dread to think what happens when you die.
The main reason I am not going to kill myself is the fact that there is always the possibility that life will get better. Even if it takes years, you can end up being happy.

[Fiction]

Everyone gets to a point when they think they'll never find anyone... I did and now i've just celebrated my one year anniversary with my bf. A year and a half ago i felt exactly like you. Yeah it will take time for it to go away, but you just have to believe that it will eventually and i know how hard that is. I stll get sucidal thoughts sometimes but i just hold on to the fact that they've gone before.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Feel free to contact me by vm/ pm or email if you want to talk about anything or just need some support :)

[Clawhammer]

Damn... I used to feel like that. But then God found me. Now it makes sense. Sympathy, bro. Been there, done that. Every day.

[Rick's_Rodeo_Girl]

Honey you just need to take a deep breath step back and look at it to see if its really as bad as it seems. If it is try talking to someone you trust and see if they will help you.