Dont know what to do

[schrei jess]

My best friend, well, she used to be my best friend, has turned into one of those stupid conceited highschool girls. We started highschool about 9 weeks back and, all of a sudden she thinks she is the coolest thing since sliced bread.

She was the sweetest person when we were in middle school, but I dont know who she is anymore. It seems like all my best friends end up going away. My best friend Megan, god I miss her, she left my middle school before eighth grade and I saw her maybe a few times after that. Her mother hated me, I guess she thought I was a bad influence. I know it's mostly because the last time I was at her house, I had just broken up with my one and only boyfriend and I was so serious about commiting suicide, so Megan told her parents. Her mom was never really nice, I was always afraid of her. But anyway she wouldnt let me see Megan anymore. You cant just take away the best friend of a suicidal girl,...you just cant do that. And now, Im losing my other best friend. I dont know what to do. And I dont want to do this, I really dont...but Im going to cut again. I hate highschool, I hate Sarah for doing this, and I hate my life. I dont even know why I stay alive anymore...everything and everyone I love just seems to go away. Everyone hates me, Ive got maybe a handful of friends. I dont really blame everyone, Im not nice, and Im not friendly...but I cant help it, it's the way I am. I just dont want to do this anymore...I cant do this anymore.

[megamikey59]

lol i'd be your friend.. :-P i'm suicidal too but i wouldn't care if all my friends left me... my dad hates me my mom hates me and my grandparents hate me.. they all said it alot of times.. they even said they didn't give a shit about me.. so i learned not to get close to anybody and not love anybody.. my best friend is always mean to me so i don't care about him.. just if we went to the same highschool and you talked to me then i probably won't talk that much... i'm like the shyest guy at my school :-P idk why i'm trying to comfort you.. just cheer up please and my best friend's mother hates me cause i'm atheist and i'm suicidal.. and all the friends i had before either went to a different school or became different people.. so we're basically on the same page :-P add me on AIM if you want to talk

[~Cookie~]

You sound like me!But hey...Forget other people.I don't even have any real freinds anymore.The people I know just use me.Think of the future though.Theres someone out there who needs you.You just gotta find them

[megamikey59]

You sound like me!But hey...Forget other people.I don't even have any real freinds anymore.The people I know just use me.Think of the future though.Theres someone out there who needs you.You just gotta find them
haha same here.. except the future crap sorry.. i don't really cuss i'm just pissed off right now.. just cheer up and i'm sorry about you dream

[Sapphire]

Cookie is right. Forget them. People aren't that nice anyway. Most are just out of all they can get and don't actually care about anyone other than themselves. Hell, most of my friends abandoned me too. The others just sort of drifted away.

I believe that there is someone out there for each and everyone of us. A soulmate. The hardest part is not becoming so jaded that when they come along we don't realise.

[megamikey59]

Cookie is right. Forget them. People aren't that nice anyway. Most are just out of all they can get and don't actually care about anyone other than themselves. Hell, most of my friends abandoned me too. The others just sort of drifted away.

I believe that there is someone out there for each and everyone of us. A soulmate. The hardest part is not becoming so jaded that when they come along we don't realise.
here's something.. don't talk about soulmates cause that's all FAKE..
i've ask my teacher what's the ratio on boys and girls.. and my teacher said 2:1 so like there's 2 girls for every guy.. so that's impossible to have soul mates..

[schrei jess]

I believe in soulmates. And your teacher cant possibly know how many males and females there are in the world. She should go shove her fake ratio crap somewhere else.

[Whisper]

actually mikey thats not true

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sex_ratio (http://<a href=)

i'm not much for the whole soulmate thing either

[megamikey59]

well it's just what my teacher said.. plus there's gays and lesbians.. and there's also people who don't like marriage so i still don't believe in the soul mate stuff..

[schrei jess]

What does the sexual preference of people have to do with anything? Gays and lesbians have soulmates as well. And having a soulmate doesnt mean you have to marry them.

[megamikey59]

um idk i forgot what i meant by it..

uh.. i thought soulmate is only for married people.. i think they should legalize gay marriages..

[Bobby]

Please don't double post, use the edit button.

[megamikey59]

Please don't double post, use the edit button.
lol i would but i already posted it.. i would've deleted it if i could.. but i went down and used the quick post so i didn't know i posted something before sorry

[mRojas2000]

:hug:
Don't worry... shit happens...
I also don't have any best friends... I don't even know if I can call my friends, friends... just chill a little, hang out with different people, and sooner or later you will have better friends :hug:

Take care :)
Miguel

[`Decadent]

Just fuck Sarah and let her do that. Once everyone goes into highschool they become so fake and different. Start to hang out with people who aren'tgay like that and who you can ahve a good time with. But please don't start cutting. It's the worse thing you can do. It not only harms you but cretaes those scars you have to live with the rest of your life.

[weber]

Let her do that, every1 changes once they star growing up… I know it’s hard to loose your best friend, I myself lost 2 of them all because I was late on growing up so they, as a result of that, started to think of other things and started to act in a way that was totally different from what they use to, they even started to tease me and all, so I got depressed and yes I even cut myself up, but that only made it worse… so I said fuck them, and started to hang out with other guys, but to be honest I don’t yet consider them my best friends (I thought I did… but idk why I cannot trust them that much)

[infextus disease]

they are right people change a lot in highschool... i dont have a single best friend or even close friend from middle school at all... i still talk to them but ive got no clue whats going on in their lives... i mean fuck ive only got one of my good friends from freshman year still... n she went to my middle school too but we were never really close friends back then... like right now ive got two best friends n like 1 close friend... everyone else is just a bud. its kinda fucked up though cuz one of my best friends is pushing me away too right now which isnt like her... n the other has got so much goin on in her life that i wouldnt even think about putting the burden of my problems on her shoulders... and my other close friend...well we talk but we dont really help eachothr much... if that makes sence.... i remember years past like 70% of my friends exsisted only online. they lived in different cities, states or even countries. we were all in the same emotional state n we all helped eachother out... so youve deffinitly got us here on VT and as always if you need or want somone to talk to im a very open and understanding guy... many people have said im not like most other guys cuz i actualy care n take time to help people instead of just thinking with my dick... so as i was saying if you ever need or want somone to talk to PM me n ill give you my screen names for aim msn yahoo or even skype