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Sith Lord 13
October 29th, 2010, 02:11 PM
What's your reason for wanting to stop cutting? What drives you to stop? What makes you pause when you reach for your blades?
MadManWithaBox
October 29th, 2010, 02:31 PM
Because I attempt to model myself, my personality at least, on Mr Winston Churchill. And he never gave up, and he never gave up fighting. Even in the darkest days, when it looked like the Germans would over-run Britain, and the darkness would engulf the world, he kept going and going and going, no matter how many times he got knocked down. And you know? Eventually, he won, and the world got its light back. Therefore, I won't give up now.
georgiamay
October 29th, 2010, 02:52 PM
The thought of my dad finding out again. Both times that he's found out he's been so upset, and I don't want to see him like that again.
I occassionally get nightmares about getting exposed in the middle of a lesson, and everyone starts pointing and laughing, and when I wake up the first thought that comes into my head is, "Well if I don't cut then it won't happen."
Plus, I don't want to end up like my mum. She never self harmed, but she was an alcoholic, and she drowned her sorrows with alcohol, and I drown mine by cutting. I don't want to go down the road she did, so I try not to do anything self destructive to deal with things.
And the thought that things get better. I keep telling myself that one day, I won't feel the need to cut or burn anymore, but first I have to fight against the urges and resist. If I can get through the hardest of times, then the rest of it can only get better. So I tell myself this, and eventually I think, "what's the point if it can only get better?"
They've worked so far, but they did last time as well. Hopefully this time I won't slip and I won't hurt my dad, end up like my mum, and things will get better.
enjoying_my_insanity
October 29th, 2010, 04:21 PM
my reason for trying to stop is my boyfriend...cuz once im better maybe he will get better and stop cutting too...also seeing my dad cry the day he found out...and one of my friends said hed call the cops if he found out i was still cutting...thats why im trying to stop
Fiction
October 29th, 2010, 04:30 PM
I don't want to get found out by my parents or people at my school and judged on the fact i cut. I don't wanna be seen as "emo" or whatever shit people will make up about me if they find out. And i want to be able to wear short sleeves again.
blah_x
October 29th, 2010, 08:02 PM
I dont want the scars. I dont want to have to explain to a future partner why he cant see my body in the light.
i dont want to be ashamed of who i am anymore.
TheFountainGoddess
October 29th, 2010, 11:48 PM
I tried to stop for my friend Matt, because i dumped all my problems on him and he cared and he was probably the only one who didnt tell me to stop, but asked me what he could do to help and when i wanted to cut, i thought of him and how much he cared about me and how much he wanted me to stop he helped me get to 70 days...
Kaius
October 30th, 2010, 02:07 AM
My promise to my girlfriend and friend. I do the butterfly thing where i draw one and name it, hence the reason my girlfriends nickname is butterfly. Over 80 days now free of cutting thanks to them :)
closed
October 30th, 2010, 03:48 AM
Actually? I believe that the only reason i would stop s because my parents will be angry if they knew i am, otherwise i'm not to bothered about it.
CUTTING ISN'T GOOD, but i just don't think i'm important enough to make an improvement.
ShatteredWings
October 30th, 2010, 08:25 PM
Why let them win? That's all cutting is really proving, IMO.
And I have certain people as motivation
1_21Guns
October 30th, 2010, 09:05 PM
A promise.
A lifestyle.
A family.
A friendship.
A deal.
The deal isn't perfect, and leaves me with oppurtinity.
To fight above that, is difficult.
but lastly.
I'm left with no choice.
welcome_to_chaos
October 30th, 2010, 10:53 PM
the only thing holding me back: a small thread of hope for tomorow
UnknownError
October 31st, 2010, 06:56 AM
I don't want to get found out by my parents or people at my school and judged on the fact i cut. I don't wanna be seen as "emo" or whatever shit people will make up about me if they find out.
Same as above.
Mike321
October 31st, 2010, 01:07 PM
I dont really have a reason, I just dont want anyone to find out about it
And I guess that fact that one day I will be happy with what I've got
tombstone
November 1st, 2010, 04:08 PM
When people see the scars, and realise what you've went through its painful for them also.
Love.Hate
November 1st, 2010, 04:21 PM
I want to stop for one reason only.
My parents finding out. I dont know how they
would react, but i certainly hope they never ever
find out. :/
spfreak
November 1st, 2010, 05:48 PM
I don't want to get found out by my parents or people at my school and judged on the fact i cut. I don't wanna be seen as "emo" or whatever shit people will make up about me if they find out.
yep, me too
Syvelocin
November 1st, 2010, 06:01 PM
my reason for trying to stop is my boyfriend...cuz once im better maybe he will get better and stop cutting too to stop
^ This
I know I'm a stressor on my fiancé. I know he would rather see me happy and SI-free, so I hesitate because I think of how it hurts him. And, like Sandy said, I have this bit of hope in me that thinks he might also have incentive to stop his destructive behaviours if he sees me overcome mine.
the only thing holding me back: a small thread of hope for tomorow
^ This too. As depressed and destructive as I am, I've always had that little light in my mind that tomorrow will be better.
DarkHorses
November 1st, 2010, 06:08 PM
Because I would hate to be the cause of my family crying again. They get so hurt, and I'm starting to realize that it's not only me who is hurt when I cut. It's also simply because cutting isn't helpful, and I'd rather use an alternative that will actually contribute positively to my well being.
Painted_Indian_Horse
November 1st, 2010, 07:55 PM
i like wearing tank tops. or at least i did.
AppealToReason
November 1st, 2010, 08:06 PM
I don't want to get found out by my parents or people at my school and judged on the fact i cut. I don't wanna be seen as "emo" or whatever shit people will make up about me if they find out. And i want to be able to wear short sleeves again.
^agreed.
REGRET
November 2nd, 2010, 12:43 PM
I am ashamed of my cutting and my scars, and I don't want that many more scars so I try to stop.
I also don't want my mother and family to find out.
Although I think almost everyone knows that I cut, but they are too afraid to say anything about it, it's kind of a "taboo subject" you know?
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