i need your help please

[LoginLeo]

Hey everybody :)
Well... Even though i always try to help people here, now i need some help myself...
I had sex with a guy. my first sex - and it was with a guy. and I loved it.
Now... After some time, he told me he wanted to break up... and that there was nothing between us..
Well.. ok, so we broke up...
But I felt like if I loved him... I mean - I always thought 'bout him, and for 3 months i was trying to talk to him and asking him to get back, and be together again.
He said no.
So... Is it possible that I really love him, or is it just because my first sex was with him ?
Considering the fact a month after we broke up I thought i was straight... U know.. like watching straight porn, and so... this month i had "something" with a girl. not sex. she came out to be such a whore, had 3 boyfriends at a time... so i dumped her... Now I'm confused.. I get horny because of gay porn, if i see a guy and he is cute - i think for myself "ough he's soo cute i want to ... him"
On the other hand, i want to have a family, and kids...
so... after f*cking your brain for the last 3 minutes... 2 questions :
1) What do u think ? I loved my ex-boyfriend for real, or i just was so aroused because my first sex was with him?
2) WTF AM I???? gay/bi/straight???

Please help me ppl ! I dunno what to think !!

Love u guys :D

[nick]

Well its possible to have sex with someone, enjoy the sex, but its just that. Just two people getting pleasure from each other. It may have been like that for the guy you lost your virginitiy with, but it sounds like it meant more than that to you and you probably did love him. Ask yourself this, did you want to get back with him just for more sex, or did you want him as a person.

I've had sex with girls, I really wanted to make myself believe I could be straight or at least could live as if I was straight because the whole family & kids thing means a lot to me. But what its really taught me is that, for me anyway, that would be living a lie. I've accepted now that I am gay and I feel happier in myself for accepting it even though its not what I would choose.

I'm not saying its the same for you, only you can know that. Dont be in any hurry to decide, but keep an open mind and be honest with yourself, accept what comes.

[LoginLeo]

Well its possible to have sex with someone, enjoy the sex, but its just that. Just two people getting pleasure from each other. It may have been like that for the guy you lost your virginitiy with, but it sounds like it meant more than that to you and you probably did love him. Ask yourself this, did you want to get back with him just for more sex, or did you want him as a person.

I've had sex with girls, I really wanted to make myself believe I could be straight or at least could live as if I was straight because the whole family & kids thing means a lot to me. But what its really taught me is that, for me anyway, that would be living a lie. I've accepted now that I am gay and I feel happier in myself for accepting it even though its not what I would choose.

I'm not saying its the same for you, only you can know that. Dont be in any hurry to decide, but keep an open mind and be honest with yourself, accept what comes.

THX
I actually think that i'd want us to come back not only for sex... im a "romantic" type of person lol.

Well, i do accpet mself whatever I am, and i do tell the same thing to everybody else.
Thank u Nick, u helped me :)

[MyFunnyFriendAndMe]

Remember you can still have kids and family in a gay relationship. :)

[LoginLeo]

Remember you can still have kids and family in a gay relationship. :)

Well... That's not the same thing...=\
But Nick actually helped me, so i'm fine i guess :)

[ALL4]

I dont think its love... To me it was just because he was ur first so u will always have that conection and secound i think ur just bi and hopefully u will get the marrige and kids u want

[poocsl]

Well... That's not the same thing...=\
But Nick actually helped me, so i'm fine i guess :)

How is that not the same thing? You should love your kids no matter if you biologically created them...I'm sorry that just slightly makes me peeved.

[Sogeking]

Please don't bump old threads. This is over 8 months old.

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