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[Janitor3]

I just hate everything, I have a wonderful life but I can't be happy! Ever no matter what I do I fail I can't get out of bed I don't want to move I hate my life all I want to do is curl up and die in my sheets.

I feel bad posting this because it's attention seeking but I can't tell my doctor how i really feel I pretend everything is sorta ok I just want to die! I've been looking up extreme in depth ways to kill myself painlessly because I'm too much of a wimp to throw myself in front of a train I don't like pain.

Tomorrow I'm 18 and I don't know what I'm going to do! I don't want to have to grow up I hate this I hate my life I even hate my friends who I put on a fake mask for I honestly hope I don't wake up tomorrow.

My mum tricked me into eating red meat a few days ago I was really tired and so passed out i didn't notice until it was in my mouth! :mad: I know that seems like nothing but it was violating since I CAN NOT and WILL Not EAT red MEAT. imagine somebody putting alcohol in your cordial or somthing it just makes me so mad that she can't pay any attention!


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what ever! why do I even want to post this? I'm sorry I just feel as though nobody is there for me.

[Love.Hate]

Everyone in VT is here for you dont apologise, you sound like your having a rough time. but suicide is never the answer. Once you have done it there is no way back.
Instead of telling a doctor what about going and seeing a counsellor or talking to someone you trust?
Happy birthday for tommorow, just because your going to be 18 doesnt mean you have to grow up fully. have a good day and try to put all your worries to one side.
Im here if you want to talk :)

[nick]

I just hate everything, I have a wonderful life but I can't be happy! Ever no matter what I do I fail I can't get out of bed I don't want to move I hate my life all I want to do is curl up and die in my sheets.

That's exactly how I felt a few weeks back. I was encouraged to go and see my doctor, had a long talk with him where I was very honest, and he prescribed me some meds which have made a huge difference to me. I'm still aware of all the things that cause me to be depressed, but I am coping with it very much better.

I really would encourage you to trust your doctor and be open and honest with them. I'd be happy to talk to you if you need someone to talk to on here.

[DrkZ90]

Well, first of all, I want to wish you a happy birthday.

Now, I would like to say that, just before your 18th birthday, I know exactly how you feel, because on top of everything else, I've felt exactly like that the last couple of birthdays, and about that I could say that you just need to think that, once you wake up tomorrow, nothing will have changed from today. You'll still be you, turning 18 won't make much of a difference if at all.

I also know how you feel about suicide, because I think exactly the same, even if on a different cause.

I would say that you should take advantage of the chances you've got: Friends and Professional Care, you should tell your doctor how you feel, you could omit some stuff if you don't feel comfortable, but you should tell him/her the core problem: that you're feeling pretty bad. Also, if you have a good relationship with your friends, they could be a lot of support too, why do you say you hate them?