I Miss Him So Much :'(

[Love.Hate]

Today is the anniversary of my grandpa's death,
i was only ten when he died but i took it really hard,

he used to try to teach me how to take good photos,
he went round his house singing,
he tought me roman numbers (cant remember any of them),
he was always so kind,
I have so many good memories of my childhood with him.

Stupid, Horrible cancer.

i wish he was still here, he was what cheered me up about my family.

i know it has been a long time, but i feel like nobody cares about him anymore. Do you think they have moved on and i am just clinging to the past.
I think i am going crazy, every night i look up at the stars and say good night to him... is that even normal?

I didnt know where to post this, but i needed to get it out of my system.

Fran xx

[Fact]

Hey Fran,
I've lost three grandparents so far, all to cancer. So I know how it feels :/
It's really good that you have lots of fond memories of him though, :] you should try to concentrate on the fact that you were happy then, not that he's gone now, although of course that isn't an easy thing to do.
I don't think you're crazy for saying goodnight to him and looking at the stars. If you are, means I'm crazy too...
Great that you have VT to let these things out too as well ^^
Hope you feel better now it's off your chest ♥

[Love.Hate]

Thanks Symone,
VT really helps, just to let things out for once.

Cancer is a horrible thing, im sorry you have lost three of your grandparents to it.
I will focus on the positives like you said, Thankyou x

[Azunite]

My grandpa died on my birthday, while we were serving the cake, my mum had a call and she "had to leave"...
I was around 9 years old, I dont remember that day well...

We are humans ! We have to embrace all that is thrown at us... Your grandpa, mine grandpa... It doesn't matter. What keeps us alive is the memories that we have. Now, whenever you look at the stars, think the moment when he took you to fishing, when he saved you from the wrath of angry parents, when he hugged you, saying " Ho-Ho... Frannie is here ! Give grandpa a hug ! "
Your memories will make you suffer if you mourn on his memories. You should continue on living, then remember those moments. That will make him live, right there, on your chest..

If you need to talk just PM me :)

[laurita_21]

I've lost some really close family friends from cancer, I miss them too. But missing something is part of what makes it a great memory :)

[Fiction]

I lost my grandad about a month ago now so I know how you feel. It's good you have good memories of him and as others have said that's what you need to remember :) I guess, being a grandad, that he was a decent age when he passed away and you have to use this as a comfort.
Feel free to contact me if you want to talk :)

[Love.Hate]

Thanks everyone :)

[ampdewamp1342]

Cancer sucks. i lost my grandfather to it in 2007. In 2008 i went to a sort of cocert/festival and this guy Greg Luarie was there. He had just lost his son in a car accident, but he saw it as that each day was getting 1 step closer to seeing him again. This works for me now...Try it, it might help.

[Love.Hate]

Wow, that is a great way of seeing it. thanks i will take that onboard :)

[CrashingWaves]

I know exactly what you mean. My Grandfather died last month and it seems almost surreal, and I am worried that we will just forget.

[Fact]

I know exactly what you mean. My Grandfather died last month and it seems almost surreal, and I am worried that we will just forget.

You won't forget if you don't want to, that I can promise you. (:

[Love.Hate]

You will never forget no matter how long it has been :/

[Kloppn]

Yes this is completely normal you will never stop missing him it is absolutely normal. Maybe why you think people have forgot about him because they have trouble bringing up the subject because of how hurt they still are and maybe they thing if they dont talk about it they wont feel so sad about the subject. Talk about him with people talk with you family about memory's you have it will help you if you talk about and remember the impact that he made on you and everyone else.