trouble resisting cutting...

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

i haven't SHed for like 2 or 3 months. :D

but, lately, i have been thinking about it. a lot. i want to so bad. i miss it, everything about it. it took my mind off my nearly constant state of anxiety i have been in since my bad shroom trip. it doesn't go away completely, but at least the blood and pain made me forget it for a little while, as well as everything else i don't want to think about. then i look at my right shoulder, and how i can't wear a sleeve any higher than my elbow, and regret cutting. the scars on my shoulder/forearm are still pink and really visible, and it makes finding things to wear in public really difficult. and it's still like 80 degrees outside where i live so long sleeves are out of the question. but at the same time i want it so bad it makes the inexplicable scars so worth it.

in short, cutting makes my life difficult, but not cutting does the same. i can't decide which is worth living with. :(

[AppealToReason]

CONGRATS on going that long without cutting. That's a really good accomplishment. I may not know you, but judging from how long you've gone I believe you are strong enough to resist the urge to cut. It might seem hard but life without cutting is so much better. I can't offer much advice except stay strong.

[Fiction]

You've gone a long time Morgan. Why give up now? You really don't want more scars do you? if you just keep on resisting the urge then eventually it will go away. Eventually you'll be free from it all and it won't be making your life any harder at all. if you carry on cutting you'll end up with more and more scars and it will carry on making your life more difficult until you decide to stop. Why carry on when you could stop it now? You've really done so well!
Btw Bio oil is meant to be really good for fading scars :)
Feel free to pm/vm or email me anytime.

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

thanks both of you :) i am pretty sure i get along without it. i hope so, anyways.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Awesomeness on u not SHing for that long. I know how hard it can be to not give in. But uve stopped for two months why start again? Its tempting, but only brings more trouble then its worth. Try going for 4 months : )

[Painted_Indian_Horse]

Try going for 4 months : )

i think i shall :)

here's my pledge to be cut free until AT LEAST November 26, 2010.
hold me to it, guys! :yes:

[bvboy]

Congrats on not cutting for so long. Don't get back to it, it is definitely not worth living with cuts and scars. Besides you said it yourself. You use SH as a way to forget about your anxiety and other problems. In other words, you use it to escape. There are many other ways to escape, but non of them are good because Escaping is NOT the answer. The day I decided that I would face my problems instead of running away from them, I stopped any form of SH. Just hang on to your promise until Nov. 26th, and then set another date. Eventually You'll find that your not as anxious anymore, and you just won't feel the need to cut.
Don't try to escape from your anxiety or other problems, everybody has problems. FACE THEM. U can do it!

[whereismymind]

You've gone 2 or 3 months don't start again now.
If you get worried about scars then don't cut because they'll get worse.
If you need to talk you can always message me, good luck :)

[blah_x]

Well done for coming on so well, honestly just try and resist the urge.
i dont know if it will be any help to you, but when i want to cut i remeber the embarassement of the scars, trying to hid them when they were really raw, etc etc.
Anyway, keep strong friend :)
here if yu ever wants to chat!