I am totally unhappy/confused.

[drac]

I can't do this anymore. I can't live a lie. I think I'm gay but unsure about it. Last night I kinda came out to one of my best mates. I said something along the lines of "I think I am gay, I've done somethings with men that I'm not proud of...[insert list]. I've just been repressing feelings and emotions for too long." sort of thing. But the thing is that I'm kinda regretting saying it to him. I'm just happy that he can keep secrets. He knows other things about me that others don't. Things like my self-harm and my history of before I moved countries. I only said it as a spur of the moment thing because we were watching (don't judge) porn and talking about another gay bloke who came out a few months ago. Like my sex appeal to women is 0%. I don't even get aroused by women anymore.

What should I do?

[penutpanther81]

its alright hell i wish i had ur guts to comeout and say im bi to one of my friends

[Mr. Awesome]

Fairplay to you for telling somone, just be yourself it dosent matter what people think so long as you are true to yourself

[Scarface]

Well, since this friend of yours seems like he is one to keep secrets he should be perfectly fine with it. If he is your true friend he will accept you for who you are. Not who you want to date. It's okay if you know you're gay, and I think it's a brave thing to come out to a close friend. It's a tough move to make at first, but you did it. So I commend you for that, it takes guts to come out for the first time and you did it. So if you are certain that you are gay, please don't regret it. If it's who you are as a person, try to be proud of who you are.

No one asked you to be gay so take pride :) You're not alone out in this world. So keep your head up. Don't regret saying it. If one person, especially a close friend knows, then you should have nothing to worry about. Just don't rush anything, be proud of who you are, even though that can be easier said than done sometimes, it will happen in due time. Okay? :hug:

[drac]

Thanks you're all a great help. I was talking to him today and he said "As long as you're happy, then I don't care whether you're gay or not. You cannot choose who you love."

[nick]

Its great that your friend accepts you for who you are, now you need to feel good about it yourself. If you're not sure whether you are gay or bi then dont be in any rush to leap to a conclusion, the labels dont mean all that much anyway and feelings can fluctuate at different times. So just stay cool, love life, and be yourself.