say sorry to yourself

[welcome_to_chaos]

I think there should be a thread here where people say sorry to their bodies for everything theyve put themselves through while self-mutilating. so i created this. this is a place where anyone can come and say sorry to themselves and make a promise that they are going to end this destructive cycle of self abuse. :) no this is not my idea but i think its a good idea and i think vt should have one. but most importantly theres also another side to apologising..its forgiveness....u must forgive yourself for all the things that you have done to harm yourself. it is only then when u can begin to recover from this horrible disease
So heres mine

dear ray's body, im sorry for all the times ive cut your skin open and hurt u beyond repair. im sorry for all the burns and marks ive made on you. im sorry for not taking care of you the way i should. i am trying to stop so u can be healty. im not free of this yet but hopefully one day i can look back and say "look how long i havent hurt you" i hope u can forgive me.
love, yourself

[Love.Hate]

I think thats a good idea too, right so im going to give it a go.. (might sound like an idiot talking to myself but what the heck).

Fran, im sorry i have put you through so much pain, all the cuts, the blood the bruises i wish i could promise there will be no more but i will try, try to impove you for the better, thankyou for taking all the crap i have put you through, hopefully i will never have to hurt you again :)

[georgiamay]

Dear Body,

I'm sorry for all the times I've cut you, burnt you, bruised you, and scratched you. I'm sorry for the times I've left you on a radiator until you were practically screaming, and I'm sorry for all the times I've tried to starve you unsuccessfully, and all the times I forced you to go without food for 2 days at a time. I've stopped depriving you of food, and I hope you're grateful for that, because it wasn't easy. I'm trying to stop cutting, burning and bruising you, and so far, it's been 18 days. Hopefully I'll never have to apologise again, and I'll never have to hurt you.

I hope you'll accept my apology and heal up quickly, because I'd like to wear short sleeves again.

Thank you for putting up with my crap.

Lots of Love,
Georgia :)

[Azunite]

Dear Body,

I am very sorry. I know that, in mental breakdown times, you wanted me to cut you, slash you ! You wanted scars around you, to forget emotional pain..
But I haven't touched the razors :( I couldn't accomplish what you wanted from me, I am sorry :(

Well this is diffrent :D

[HeroesAndCons]

Dear Left Arm
Im sorry for cutting you and biting you until i bled or felt pain
Dear Right Leg
Im sorry for making you hurt by the razorblades im sorry for punching you untill you couldent transport me places without hurting
ill try to get both of you and the rest of your bodypart friends sh free

[UnknownError]

Dear ankle,
Im sorry for all the times I've scratched, cut and hurt you.
Lets forget about it shall we.

[Fiction]

Dear me...
I'm sorry for all the cuts, burns, bruises and scalds i've inflicted on you. I'm sorry for all the scars you now have and will never get rid of.
I'm sorry for starving you until you can't function anymore, and until your going dizzy.
I'm sorry for all the time i've taken all those pills and drank all that alcohol until the point that you have to force it back up...
I'm sorry for all the times when you wanted that food and I made you throw it back up.
One day it won't be like this, it might not be soon but one day, I promise.
Love Kathy.

[Mike321]

Dear myself...
I'm sorry for every cut or bruise i've given you
And all the sleepless nights i've forced on you
I cant promise I wont do it again, but one day it'll stop

-Mike-

[Syvelocin]

Legs, I'm sorry you have to endure the stinging aftermath of my fury. I'm sorry that I prevent you from healing in order to increase scarring.
Body, I'm sorry I don't let you rest. I'm sorry I don't nourish you. You're already going through enough to have to go through everything that I'm putting you through. You don't deserve the self-destructive person who is occupying you.

[Weeping]

Dear Body,
I'm sorry for every single time I've cut trough your skin.
Every time I've burnt your arms.
Every time I've bitten you until it bled.
Every time I've pulled your hair.
Every little scratch I've ever given you.
I'm sorry.
Sorry for all the times..
I've not given you the food you needed.
And every time I gave you to much of it.
Every time I put your fingers down your throat.
I know it hurt, I'm sorry.
All the times your knuckles have been bleeding from your teeth.
Every time I've been hitting your head to walls and tables.
And I'm sorry. So sorry. For all the times I've planned to kill you.
Please forgive me. :(

Hugs, Elvira!

[spfreak]

This is a great idea.

Dead body,
I am sorry for all the cuts on the wrists and all of the scars on the arms. I am sorry for all the pills i injested. I am sorry for all the suicide attemps. Let's forgive and forget.
-Joe

[1_21Guns]

i'm sorry.
i'm sorry to my arms forever scarred,
i'm sorry to my stomach, burnt only once but will last forever.
i'm sorry to my thighs/hips, carved.
i'm sorry to my ankles, cut serveral times.
i'm sorry to my stomach, both starved and forced with pills.
but most importantly.
i'm sorry to my heart for everything i did.

[blah_x]

I am sorry....
for the guts
the gashes
the scratches
and
the burns.

i wish i loved you more that i do, keep dreaming.
x


that was quite strange :)

[starbrite5]

Dear body, you don't deserve what you've been through. I'm sorry for the cuts, the burns, the scratching and picking. I'm sorry for filling you to bursting and leaving you empty for days. I've hated and neglected you for years. And I'm not gonna make any false promises. It probably won't stop any time soon. But it will stop someday. Hang in there.

[xgeekyrocksx]

Dear Body,
Im sorry for the amount of times i've hurt you, cut you, burnt you, bruised you.... stopped you eating... im sorry for hating you, and abusing you, i apologise for the scars that you now have... Im sorry that im such a horrible person and that you have me instead of someone remotly nice. Ima change, but for now.. im sorry...
Lots Of Love,
Polina

[closed]

Dear Ankles, upper left arm, left arm, left hand, right arm, ears, hair, chest and legs for all the times i purposely bitten, scratched to blood, cut, burned, pulled and pierced you. sorry to my stomach that was starved and overfed many times as an act of rage and sadness. i'm sorry. but it's not gonna stop.
I feel like i owe you my life but still continue to cut you, and i don't think i'm going to stop.
Really sorry, maybe you better be torn from me and given to a person who will use you properly.

[enjoying_my_insanity]

dear left arm
im sorry for all the scratches and the cuts
dear right hip
im sorry for the cuts to you
dear knuckles
im sorry for biting you for the pain
dear stomach
im sorry for trying to starve you
dear heart
im sorry for you getting broken so often you deserve better
dear Sandy
im sorry ive done all this to you im trying to stop i really am its just very difficult...hopefully soon ill see your beauty that everyone says you have and ill realize that you are great
Love
Sandy

[bvboy]

Dear Ankles, upper left arm, left arm, left hand, right arm, ears, hair, chest and legs for all the times i purposely bitten, scratched to blood, cut, burned, pulled and pierced you. sorry to my stomach that was starved and overfed many times as an act of rage and sadness. i'm sorry. but it's not gonna stop.
I feel like i owe you my life but still continue to cut you, and i don't think i'm going to stop.
Really sorry, maybe you better be torn from me and given to a person who will use you properly.

I know this is only for apologies, but really don't say this, You do deserve your body and you do deserve your life, If u are hear its because u know u need to stop SH and you are trying and that is what counts. Keep going, and don't think if its gonna stop or not, just don't do it, take it one day at a time.
YOU DESERVE YOUR LIFE.
Peace

[TheLovelyScars.x]

Dear body,
I'm sorry for damaging you because of all my self hatred.
Legs, i apologize for the cuts & bruises.
Left arm, i apologize for burning you, cutting you and bruising you.
Stomach, i apologize for starving you and making you throw up when you didn't want to.

Dear body,
I'm sorry for the permanent scarring.
One day, it will all stop. I promise.

[welcome_to_chaos]

Dear my body, im sorry for what ive put u through these past few weeks. im sorry for all the skipping meals. then eating till i puke because i stuff u so full. im sorry for all the cuts ive made on u. im sorry for the stress ive put u under. i know i vowed to end this madness but it doesnt look to good for u. im sorry

[jbraud]

Dear me,

I'm sorry for all the cuts, burns, and scratches i've given you. i am sorry for getting addicted to such a bad habit. and i am sorry for making you think that i'm going to quit, only to do it again a few days later.

-sincerely,
me

[Nobody]

Dear body,
I'm sorry for hating you and hurting you. I'm sorry for all the times I've cut you, scratched you, bit you, burnt you, hit you or hit things around me which caused more pain to you than to them. I'm sorry for tearing the scars open when they were healing. I'm sorry for making you look ugly and disgusting because of the number of scars. I'm sorry for using all the ways to destroy you including drinking, smoking and drugs. I'm sorry for not giving you food when you wanted to or giving you much more than you wanted. I'm sorry for making you vomit, when you didn't feel like it. I'm sorry for anything I've done that made you hurt, bleed or feel bad.
I'm sorry you have had to go through all that.

But most importantly - I'm sorry for being unable to love you as I should.
Me.

[tashbash3]

Dear Natasha,
I'm sorry everytime i cut into your arms, legs and hands, i'm sorry the time that i burnt you, i'm sorry for pulling your hair out.
I'm sorry for the times when i starved you, and i'm sorry when i made you eat a litte too much. I'm sorry for hating you at times. I'm sorry for the times when i wished that you would die.
I'm sorry about everything i've done to you. Forgive me.
xx