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[DismaliciouSx]

I guess I'm not really looking for a response to this, I just wanna get it out. I'm 17 and been crying myself to sleep at night, the people that are my friends are girls cause guys hate me for stupid reasons then I fuck up the friendship with the girls by trying to date them. This past weeks I have finally realised how useless I am. I'm a shy guy that nobody ever notices and I have been dreaming I'm going to die at age 19 since I was 11. All I do is think of how easier it would be if I was this person or that person cause they have perfect lives. I'm failing a lot of classes and probably won't graduate on time. I'm a waste of space...

[Charleigh]

come on ! at some point in life everyone will think of bad thoughts. and when you try to date friends, it might be because you want that sense of someone there that you can be with and be happy with. there isnt anything wrong with being shy, but come out from underneath the blanket when it comes to guys :) i used to be like that ... dating all the boy friends that i had and now, i dunno i just feel that friends are friends and that any other feelings i have towards someone i admit to them but also say i dont want anything more than friendship. and by the way, nobodys life is perfect, they might make it seem like it is and act like they have eveyone wrapped around their finger, but EVERYONE has problems in life, i wish i was my friend Natasha, shes beutiful and she is very clever. but we are who we are :)

pm me if you want anything im always here to listen :) x

[Fiction]

No one is useless. You will always mean something to someone. However small your part in people's lives is you still need to be there to do it. No one else will do it for you. (i'm sure that's a quote from somewhere forgot where though.) As for the friends there is nothing wrong with having friends that are just girls, although it may be good for you to find friends who are guys. Not always trying to date the girls will help you keep them as friends though. As for your classes you can only try your best. Even if you don't do well in your exams there is still so much out there for you in life :)
Feel free to vm/pm or email (email in sig) at any time :)

[the8bitter]

My god...I think in a fairly similar way. Although, a lot of my friends would be guys since most girls think I'm pretty lame. (What kind of girl would want to be with a guy who has about one million video games and the ugliest face to grace the face of the planet? None I would know of.) The ones I DO become friends with generally think I'm sweet, cute or whatever. I never end up dating them, and I don't even bother asking or even making subtle hints. I've actually thought of dying on my twentieth birthday (01/05/2016), should I never become the object of affection for anyone. I myself often cry myself to sleep over crushes...I'm currently infatuated with who I would say is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, and she knows nothing about me (but according to my friend, she's aware I have a crush on her). All I can think of, most of the time, is her and even if I know I can never have her...I cry over it anyways.

I can totally relate on the uselessness thing. I suffer from an inferiortory complex, and it doesn't help that my best bud happens to be a very talented musician and that the woman I'm crushing on actually cares about him. One time, my bud started talking about how she kissed him...I wanted to die right then and there. I still get pretty upset over it. I've cut over it before, and that has landed me into deep shit with nosy social workers. I'm going to end up seeing a physcologist soon, but they'll never know that is why.

I feel ya. :(

[unlucky-star]

@ Dismaliciousx- Honestly I've felt the same way you have and still do sometimes. I used to cry myself to sleep because I felt useless and like I couldn't do anything right. I don't think you did anything wrong by trying to date a friend that you obviously had feelings for or felt like she understood you in some way. I hope you feel better in time.