How things are.

[whereismymind]

Right now things seem so crap to be honest.
I argue with my dad and I can't take it any more he only seems to care about my brothers, how can I tell?. I cry my eyes out at night when I lay in bed and my dad doesn't worry about that I get into trouble for waking up my little brother. My older brother has stretch marks from growing my dad worries badly and I walk around with cuts on my arm and he doesn't even ask or worry about it. Also he's re-married lately and he gives more of a crap about a woman he met a year and a bit ago than me. Because I argue so much with him my dad has said he'll shave my head completely and take away my phone and computer. It sounds stupid but he'd be humiliating me and taking away any source of help. The only parent who seems to give a damn is my mum but she moved away to Cambridge and I see her once a month and that's mainly what I look forward to, but she's pregnant and is going to have a kid and I'll see her even less and she'll stop caring about me and give more of a damn about her new kid, I know it'll be nothing personal she'll want to be a good parent to this kid and I'll become invisible to her.

At school things have been getting worse and worse, a guy treated me like dirt and everyone took his side so I went away from the group of friends and I have 1 or 2 mates there now. Also now people have been following me around and pushing me, I can't sit in the cantine and have lunch without someone throwing stuff at me. Lately I've been getting moved in classes by teachers because people wind me up or don't like me and get me into trouble just so I'll go. I can't even talk or think aloud because someone tells me to shut up and says nobody likes me which is pretty much true.

There's also this girl who's absolutely amazing and even though she dumped me "to focus on her GCSE's" I feel like I still love her and I know she's going to end up with another guy. The guy who treated me like dirt however is probably gonna ask her out and to be honest thats what would just finish me off, even though I tell my friends I won't bother with her.

My cuttings been getting worse and worse because of these reasons going from 1 or 2 times a month to 1 or 2 times a day and I think I'm going to get worse. I just don't know what to do any more.

[Fiction]

First of all, your dad sounds like he's abusing or at least neglecting you, I think you really should tell someone about that. Maybe a teacher? Or even your mum, she might be able to help.
I think you should tell the teacher about the bullying aswell, they might be able to help.
As for the girl, you'll find someone else. I know you probabaly don't think you will at this point but you've just got to have hope.
I remember thinking that my cutting was just getting worse, and that i didn't know what to do anymore but alot of things in my life sorted them our for themself and my cutting got less again. Talking to someone could also help with this as well.
I really think telling your mum would be a good idea, maybe you can move house with her and that way you get away from your Dad and have a fresh start at school.
I'm here to talk anytime. You can VM or PM me or my email adress is in my sig :)

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Your dads an a*shole ( no offence) And u should tell someone about the way hes treating you. Secondly if your being picked on at school tell a teacher, I know it sux when someone you still care about dumps you, but you`ll find someone better in the end. Honestly I think you should report your father to the CAS. No one has the right to be treated that way. I know when things get bad for me I crave for the blade alot but try to find ither ways to cope. Know that no matter how bad things seem now, they can and will get better. You can get past this.

[Love.Hate]

You need to tell your mum how your dad is acting towards you, maybe you could go live with her? move schools and have a new start like fiction said.
you know my view on the bulling, tell a teacher or they will carry on treating you like shit, and you dont deserve that.
the girl is stupid for leaving you for that reason, you need to move on from her or you will cause yourself so much heart ache. If you sort any of your problems out you will gradually slow down on cutting maybe not to the extent you used to but not twice a day! life sucks sometimes and your going through a hard time. but it will not be like this forever :) you know where i am if you need me :) xx

[spfreak]

I can relate to the dad situation, mine is a jerk as well. But we don't talk. and I'd say for sure talk to your mom about your dad and the way he acts towards you.

As for the bullying, all you can really do is tell the bully in private to cut it out, or get an principal or teacher at the school to take some action towards that.

and it really sucks about the girl you like, but over time you will get over her, and find a new girl that likes you for you and she will make you feel great about life and yourself.

[whereismymind]

I don't think I'll ask to move, i don't want to leave the friends I still have behind me.
I'm gonna go to my form tutor about the people at school being dicks.
As for this girl I hope I'll forget about her soon.
Thanks for the advice its honestly appreciated.

[HeroesAndCons]

talk to ur mom about it she will prolly take u in depending on the situation