Can't win...?

[Fiction]

Me and my dad always argue. Pretty much everytime we spend time together we argue- like today. He was making fun of me not with me but at me with my mum and he was trying to annoy me. He was trying to get me to say stuff so I ignored him. He carried on so I told him to stop, he didn't and I got annoyed. He even admitted to doing to annoy me but still walked off from me and wouldn't talk to me when I got annoyed. Surly this was his aim? He said I was just annoyed at him about something else and taking it out on him. He kept trying to make up with me, but it wasn't really making up. He was just telling me basically exactly why it was my fault and why I should say sorry. We are away at the moment and he said "you'd been nice for once don't ruin it now". Like i'm some terrible daughter... well maybe i am. :/ He always seems to be able to make feel guilty for him making fun of me. He can never admit he's wrong. Maybe I am just a terrible daughter. He's said stuff before like "you ruin everything" and "i don't know where i went wrong with you" and it actually hurts. There seem to be so many people with more friends, families who care a bit more and just more people liking them and caring in general. It really makes me wonder what I do wrong. What terrible personality trait do I have that makes people hate me that I don't notice? I rely on people too much. I need to stop needing people and stop moaning to people i feel like such a bitch. I swear I actually hate everything about myself sometimes. it's like whatever i do I can't win. I'm never happy with myself. :/
Sorry that was a long post, thanks to anyone that read.

[Fact]

i read, Fiction.
i don't think you're a terrible daughter (: being your second mother.
i think that if your dad persistently treats you like this, it could be because you're the older daughter? so more emphasis is put on you to be the more 'sensible' type. almost like you should be more mature and act like an adult all the time? not taking your hormones into account and little things like that.

if it really is down to you, then maybe, like you said, you rely on people too much? often, if you want to feel good, the best source is yourself. if you find a way of making yourself feel good without other people, you find you can be happier than you are with people. assuming what you said about relying it relevant to that.
there's still no need to put yourself down about it ^^

chin up sweetie, hope this helps.
♥

[Beats]

I think it is totally true, I fight with my dad too, It is starting to get worse, I told him I hated him the other day. I don't really mean it. But he's not my /real/ dad anyways. I don't know how to react.

[Fiction]

I suppose it couild be to do with me beign the older one... But my sister tells my parents she hates them, hits them etc and gets away with it. I'm not an angle but i don't do this. My dad always wonders why i don't spend time with him too and the answers in the post above :/ Thanks for your replies both of you. :)