self control..

[Razz]

i obviously have no self control right now... I thought to myself one cut one cut... now i've got over 60 on my arm.... That worked obviously well... NOT!!! Problem is i want to do it again... After i started hacking at myself i couldn't stop.. it was a game... how much blood could i lose? how deep could i go? how much pain can i take? i need help... i need a distraction.... someone please help me... :'( i can't take this feeling anymore... i've had an awful night. yes... i know things will get better... look at the light at the end of the tunnel.. there is no light!!! my light has been estinguished by my parents. they have told me i cna't make it into college, i'll fail out if i go. i don't have the grades or determination to make it through... even my psycologist took their side.. basically calling me a failure... i get Bs... i'm not failing.. i suffer from learning disabilities and trying my best... perhaps not my best... but as much as my emotions will let me take in.. i just.. i don't know what to do.. i'm a mess right now... please someone hlep me... i need self control... i feel like i'm losing control of myself right now... i don't want to do something stupid...

[AppealToReason]

Don't let anyone put you down. You CAN go to college. You ARE NOT a failure. I know it's hard to do, but ignore their insults. Do your best to prove them wrong. You're always welcome to rant if you need to. Just don't ever give up and stay strong.

[Razz]

true... i should prove them wrong... i'm trying to not let them get to me... but it's hard... thanx...

[AppealToReason]

It probably won't help much, but you can pm me if you ever need to just talk. Stay strong Razz.

[Razz]

we can't Pm we need 100 posts to pm but tahnx, i'm trying....

[AppealToReason]

Ha. Guess I should of known about that. Anyways, I'm off for the night so I hope you feel better soon.

[UnknownError]

Its not your fault. :hug3:
SH is addicting, as you probably know.
And you can go to college as long as you try hard.
Ignore what they are saying.
PM me if you want when you get to 100 posts.

[Razz]

self harm is addicting i've been self harming all my life... cutting for 6 years now..
even if i don't try i'd get into college... well community college hehe
i'm trying to but when your mother says something like you hate your life.. go hang yourself.. after she hits me in the face... it's kind of hard not to get upset about it... :'(
i shall... thank you

[Love.Hate]

You can get into college.
ignore what people say, including your mother,
she probably doesnt mean the things she says so dont
take them personally. just to let you know im here if
you need to talk (i need to get to 100 posts first too) :)

[Razz]

i'm trying not to take it personally.. and thanx

[Harley Quinn]

OP banned :locked: