i'm going to do it again..

[bringmethecookies]

i just know i will end up cutting again, i've tried so hard.
i haven't done it for about a month, but i don't know why i bothered.
basically, there's this new girl in my school called keisha. as she was in my food tech class, i thought maybe i could try and be friendly. at break, my friends come up to me and tell me they've become friends with her, and if i hang out with them i can't... well, be myself.
as me and danielle were queueing in the canteen at lunch, i saw the friends i was on about. when they saw us, they giggled and ran away. whenever they saw us they'd run away. then i hear that they fucking decided that they hate me and danielle because i'm 'too emo' and danielle is 'too fat'. so i went up to them when they were sitting down and said 'if you want to fucking say stuff about us, say it too my face. and why hate us because of them petty excuses?!' one of them went red and said they didn't. they were all laughing, and they know my fear of rejection. it hurt me so fucking much. danielle sat down with me to try and calm me down, i was so angry. i couldn't even talk. i snapped my lunch card because i accidently snapped it D:

i know this sounds stupid, but they know the shit going on in my life. they were supposed to be my best friends. i don't know why i bothered.

i'm fucking gonna cut, i can't keep this anger inside anymore.

[Scarface]

Well these friends of yours must have nothing better to do besides talk shit and cause drama. Which they stooped pretty low to do it with their own friends. So obviously they aren't your friends. You cannot let these girls know that they got to you with their lowly comments because they will only continue. Though it's good you confronted them, you shouldn't give them too much power even though you have a fear of rejection, you shouldn't let them have that much power to rent space in your head.

First of all why cut over scum like that? It's certainly not worth it especially seeing as how they would make fun of their own friends. It's their problem. Let them make laughs because when they realize that you aren't giving into what they say and they lost you two as friends, they will regret it down the road thus you winning in the end.

Definitely not worth cutting over hun. I know the drama can be tough and friends can make you angry, but not worth cutting over. It's not going to solve anything, it's only going to be more problems added. You've made it a month which is great! Why throw all of that away because of some girls that are lowly scum? Don't let what they say interpret your actions as cutting isn't the way out or as a relief. You can just talk to Danielle, since she is your friend, then hang out with her and make some new friends because those girls don't deserve your friendship. Just pretend like they don't exist as their comments and words don't mean a thing. You are who you are, whatever you look like shouldn't mean a thing and if they have to make fun of you for it then they are not even worth getting worked up about.

If you need someone to talk to I'm always here you can PM/VM me anytime. You don't have to cut over this hun, you don't have to go back to that because they're not worth cutting over, okay? It's going to get better. :hug3:

[Fiction]

I know bitchiness like this can hurt loads but that's all it is, bitchiness. They have no reason to hate you, they just have nothing better to do. If you get upset about it you are probably doing exactly what they want you to do.
Cutting won't solve the problem. It'll only make you feel better for a few minutes and then you'll feel worse than you did before. Are those few minutes worth the guilt and the scars you'll be left with? I know it's hard not to sometimes but there are loads of ways you can distract yourself. If you need a distraction you can always pm/vm or email me. M email adress is in my sig :)

[spfreak]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear about that. But if all these girls are doing is talking about you, then don't stress over it. All these girls want is attention because they feel insecure with themselves. They are the type of girls that bully, just so people will notice them.

You shouldn't cut yourself over something like this. These girls are not worth it. And you'll feel terribly about it after you have done it. I remember how hard trying not to cut was. but I also remember, when I did cut. I felt terribly. Now that I have stopped I feel better, there are much better ways to cope with pain.