Why does everything go to crap?

[whereismymind]

I'm 13 and in year 9 at my school. I argue a lot with my brother and it causes arguments with my dad as when I'm angry I lash out and shout and my dad takes my brother's side constantly, it just makes me cry. My mum and dad have been divorced for 2 and a bit years and I miss my mum like hell, before the divorce my dad never made the effort and now all of a sudden he wants to I hate it. Also my older brother passed all of his GCSE's and does well at school and my little brother does a load of clubs and my dad says how proud he is of hem. He has never said he's proud of me. I've always got to improve and I've always got a poisonous attitude according to him. I see my mum once a month and that's usually all I've got to look forward to unless I'm seeing my friends. At school almost everyone takes the mick out of me and hates me, I've got 3 or 4 proper friends at the most and it just makes me feel so crap. Usually I just sit in my room at home so when its just me and my brother inside I get my compass from my maths set out and cut myself. I don't do it for attention I do it because its just an alternative to lashing out and making things worse. I've done it 3 or 4 times now and I walk around with cuts on my arm and nobody asks about them which just proves how unimportant I am. While everything gets worse and worse for me things get better and better for the people I hate and it just makes me feel so much worse :'( I don't want to sound like some moany teenager but I just need to say what I feel like and share what I've done with someone I can trust I've told two friends one kept her word and told nobody the other laughed when people shouted out jokes about it, everything is so good for him and I hate it and when I told him what I thought about it afterwoods everyone thought I was being an arsehole for no reason. I honestly feel like nobody really cares right now ='(

[Fiction]

It seems to me that by cutting, you are hoping to get someone to care because you feel like no one cares. Cutting is no good. You can tell people how upset you are or you can show them by cutting, as you are doing now. If you choose the second one you could become addicted and end up doing serious damage to yourself. I sugest you talk to someone about what is going on in your life and try to stop cutting. If you want to talk to me about any of this you can VM or email me. My email adress is in my sig :)

[UnknownError]

Hun its going to be okay. :hug3:
Oh course you dont do it for attention, else you wouldn't be posting on here.
Your family must care, if they have seen the cuts they might just not know what to say.
Your friend who laughed is an idiot. Forget about him and ignore anyone who laughs at you.
If you want anyone to talk to, Im here. I, and lots of other people on here, we care. :)
Take care and feel free to message me.

[xgeekyrocksx]

its okay, you know i care and well done for joining vt :)
*hugs youu* talk to your friends and ignore the guys at school, they just need someone to stand over, someone to be cooler than. Your important and please,please try to stop this cutting, oh important one :) i hope you are okay and if you ever need to talk, im here xx

[Love.Hate]

The guy that laughed at you is a jerk.
Talk to people about how you feel, dont let them just pursume by your scars.
It gets addictive, try to stop now, i know its hard but its better to stop early,
find another way to channel your feelings.

Just to let you know im here if you need to talk, good luck xx

[georgiamay]

cutting won't make people care. It'll make them worried. You're family does care about you, and I know it's hard to believe, I think your dad cares about you so much that you can't see it.
Why do you think he tells you ways to improve? You might think it's because he doesn't think you are "good enough," it's because he wants you to be the best that you can possibly be. I went through the same thing with my dad, I though he was just being a prick, and he didn't really care, but it turns out that he just wanted me to live up to my potential. You have your GCSE's starting next year, and maybe he's getting on your back to try and get you to change your attitude so that you're ready for it. Maybe he might be being harsh in the way he says it (I know my dad was), but he's doing it because he cares.

You've only just started cutting, so It'll be easier for you to stop. If I could go back to where you are now having only done a few cuts, I'd tell myself to stop now before it gets a thousand times worse, and trust me it can. You don't want to get addicted, because it is one of the worst feelings in the world.

Your friend it a twat if he laughed at you. Ignore him, I obviously has the emotional and mental range of a teapot. He doesn't know what he's talking about, and he doesn't sound like a great friend to me.

You're not doing it for attention, everyone here knows that if you ask for help on this site, it's because you genuinly want help.

Everyone here wants to help you, that's why we're here. If you look around the forum you'll see what self harm can do to people.

You're not unimportant, and people do care about you. You family cares, and we care.
You can PM or email me if you ever need to talk, I'm always here :hug3:

[whereismymind]

I'm feeling ok at the mo thanks to everyone thats commented on it its much appreciated. I'm gonna finish my coursework off anyway and my dads out all day =) dunno how long for but for now im ok :) but I go through good periods of time and bad