Immortal Love
October 14th, 2010, 10:43 PM
Alright, first off, I want to say that I honestly do love my boyfriend. I'd die if something happened to us, but I have issues with us.
You see, he claims he has MPD, is Skitzo, and that if he gets to stressed, he has what he calls 'Mini Heart-attacks'. Now I honestly believe none of this, at all. I do, however know that he has issues with his kidney, so there is a possibility for the mini heart attacks. But the MPD and others things, I doubt. Why? Well "they" can take over his body and talk for him. Yes they are different, but they seem to... acted out to me. Thats just one of the problems.
The other thing is he is a total control freak. Like, to the maximum. I can't do anything after school, spend time with my friends, or family (which i honestly wouldn't want to do anyways), or barely even nap if I want to. If i suggest these things to him, he gets all huffed up and says how I rather be doing that and "wasting" our time together. He lives in a different state, so the time difference is 3 hours. Like I said, I do love him, but I can't always be with him. I've had to lie and tell him I had a doctors appointment just so I could spend some time with a good friend!
He also get angered very fast, and likes to "break" me when he is mad. By this i mean that since he knows my deepest, darkest pasts and horrid happenings, he uses them against me to depress me to a point that I just snap and turn blank. When that happens, someone could tell me to lay in the street, and I would do it. SO you see how bothersom this can get. He can just drive me to S-H, which he tries to get me to stop, bless him, but it dosn't help when he screams and swears at me the next minute.
So now, I ask for your opinions. I need help before it becomes worse.
You see, he claims he has MPD, is Skitzo, and that if he gets to stressed, he has what he calls 'Mini Heart-attacks'. Now I honestly believe none of this, at all. I do, however know that he has issues with his kidney, so there is a possibility for the mini heart attacks. But the MPD and others things, I doubt. Why? Well "they" can take over his body and talk for him. Yes they are different, but they seem to... acted out to me. Thats just one of the problems.
The other thing is he is a total control freak. Like, to the maximum. I can't do anything after school, spend time with my friends, or family (which i honestly wouldn't want to do anyways), or barely even nap if I want to. If i suggest these things to him, he gets all huffed up and says how I rather be doing that and "wasting" our time together. He lives in a different state, so the time difference is 3 hours. Like I said, I do love him, but I can't always be with him. I've had to lie and tell him I had a doctors appointment just so I could spend some time with a good friend!
He also get angered very fast, and likes to "break" me when he is mad. By this i mean that since he knows my deepest, darkest pasts and horrid happenings, he uses them against me to depress me to a point that I just snap and turn blank. When that happens, someone could tell me to lay in the street, and I would do it. SO you see how bothersom this can get. He can just drive me to S-H, which he tries to get me to stop, bless him, but it dosn't help when he screams and swears at me the next minute.
So now, I ask for your opinions. I need help before it becomes worse.