bedtime

[Asylum]

so for the past week or so i've been sleeping a lot more. rather.. once done my homework i go to sleep and hide under the covers. it's better then dealing with my family... and drama.. i just realy want to close my eyes forever... it would be best. maybe one day i won't wake up anymroe... wouldn't htat me nice... my parents are starting to notice i'm sleeping more.... which isn't good :(

[Syvelocin]

Sleeping more = something's always up. That's how I've found it to be. When I'm in bed more than I usually am, finishing my school work then turning in until 7:00PM, you know that either I pulled an all-nighter, or I've hit another spell of depression. It's not good when your bed seems so much more appealing than it usually does.

Sleep is a comfortable place where no one can touch you. It's so calm, a dim-lit room and some nice sheets to be buried in, resting your eyes and your body from the day's struggles. It's incredibly appealing. Just thinking about it gets me envious :3 I've had days where I've spent my entire day in a moderately dark room, my bedroom or my porch, napping a bit, and the rest of the time staring at the wall with a blank mind. I have great memories of this. Once, I was visiting family for the winter holidays, and I came down with the flu. Now, it's a much larger deal for me, since my body can't fight it off. I remember just laying there at around eight, listening to the drone of the adults in the other room, sipping my flat pop and staring up at the ceiling. Just thinking. The thought often crossed my mind of whether I would survive it, but it didn't bother me. Even though I was sick, I still feel there was a big depression factor in this.

Anyway...
In all honesty, doing this for a day can actually be nice, maybe even good for you. After a while, you really need to get yourself up. Maybe replace it with a nice walk around the block. Being in bed for prolonged periods isn't too good for you :(

[closed]

changing your sleep habits (either sleeping much more than usual or much less) is one of the symptoms of depression (obviously it can accure because other reasons). when you go to bed early it's sort of way to escape the world.
remember that you need to face life, not escape it. of course it's easier to escape but i'm sure you can deal with it.
it's hard to do, and i guess you need to start on the thing that makes it-your family and drama that happens everyday.
-if you ever need someone to talk to p.m. me :)