I'm in bed for a reason...

[[[chickaroo92]]]

and that reason means LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. Why doesn't anyone understand that I have every right to grieve in my own way, that I am allowed to be depressed, that I just want to be left alone?

Father: Chaya, get up, otherwise I'm calling your Psychologist.
Me: Mmmm.... (in my head: I don't want to talk to anyone.)
Father: Did you do any of your work today?
Me: Nods head.
Father: You can't continue being depressed like this, it isn't healthy.
Me: - silence -
*Father walks out out room*
Me: - goes back to sleep. -


A half an hour later, mom comes into my room and tries to get me out of bed. She kept on saying: "Life goes on, life goes on.." "Robby wouldn't want you to be like this.." BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I said, Robby is dead. He doesn't have emotion or a thought process anymore; if he did, he'd still be alive and wouldn't be fucking taken away from my family and me. If he was alive, then I wouldn't be depressed. If he was alive, I wouldn't be angry. He didn't deserve to die. He just didn't.


I don't want to go out, I don't feel like eating, I don't feel like talking... I just want everyone to go away and leave me to my suffering.

[closed]

You have any right to grieve. try to explain them that right now you don't want anything and want to be left alone.
-the grieving will pass. in a week you will feel less numb and sad, and within time it will almost completely heal.
grievings best cure is time (& talking bout it).

[Scarface]

Grieving is a very difficult process. It takes a lot of time and differs from person to person how fast the healing will complete.

The process of grieving is this;
1.)Denial
2.)Anger
3.)Sadness/Grief
4.)Acceptance

Sometimes it's not in that exact order, but in most cases as in with me and what happened to many of my family members, it was. Hun, people are going to pass in your lifetime as well as everyone else. Whether it was their time or it was. Though the thing that you have to remember that if they were in pain. They no longer are. If they were suffering, they no longer are.

Robby may have passed, but his presence remains now as it will forever in your heart. Though he may not be there with you physically he will be at heart. I don't believe in a heaven or hell, but just know that he is at rest. Hun, talking about it is going to be a great way for you to feel even the slightest better. As much as your parents maybe nagging at you. They're concerned about you and they obviously hate to see you feeling this way. They want to see you smile, even though it's definitely not an appropriate time, or the best way on their approach, but they're trying hun.

Talking about it is going to help. When you need someone to talk to you can of course go to your psychologist, but when you need someone to talk to right away, I'm always here to help. PM/VM me anytime, because this is a difficult process and if you need a support system as small as I am, I can try and help to the best of my ability. Okay? :hug3:

[[[chickaroo92]]]

You have any right to grieve. try to explain them that right now you don't want anything and want to be left alone.
-the grieving will pass. in a week you will feel less numb and sad, and within time it will almost completely heal.
grievings best cure is time (& talking bout it).

Grieving is a very difficult process. It takes a lot of time and differs from person to person how fast the healing will complete.

The process of grieving is this;
1.)Denial
2.)Anger
3.)Sadness/Grief
4.)Acceptance

Sometimes it's not in that exact order, but in most cases as in with me and what happened to many of my family members, it was. Hun, people are going to pass in your lifetime as well as everyone else. Whether it was their time or it was. Though the thing that you have to remember that if they were in pain. They no longer are. If they were suffering, they no longer are.

Robby may have passed, but his presence remains now as it will forever in your heart. Though he may not be there with you physically he will be at heart. I don't believe in a heaven or hell, but just know that he is at rest. Hun, talking about it is going to be a great way for you to feel even the slightest better. As much as your parents maybe nagging at you. They're concerned about you and they obviously hate to see you feeling this way. They want to see you smile, even though it's definitely not an appropriate time, or the best way on their approach, but they're trying hun.

Talking about it is going to help. When you need someone to talk to you can of course go to your psychologist, but when you need someone to talk to right away, I'm always here to help. PM/VM me anytime, because this is a difficult process and if you need a support system as small as I am, I can try and help to the best of my ability. Okay? :hug3:

Thank-you to the both of you, I really appreciate it. I know that talking helps, and I told my parents when I am ready, I'd talk. It's just that I don't feel its time to talk yet... because then I'll just get all emotional again.