Depression...?

[Dunce]

Hey a few months ago I figured out I have depression. I had noticed alot of changes in my mindset and personality, and wanted answers, it took weeks for me to even consider depression. Though, I still dont knwo what type it is.

It's strange because ever since I began feeling this hopeless and empty I decided that I dont want to take this out on others and I want to be the best person I possibly can. I'm chatty, cheerful, I listen to people, and to be people tell me I inspire them.
It's strange because when I'm around people I become this different person, and sometimes I really am content around them. But when I get the chance to be alone, I hate myself, i'm unable to make decisions, I honestly have lost the will to live, the future seems dark and empty to me, my thoughts scare me, I have very low sex drive, and I'm cynical. I've thought about suicide before and swore to myself I'd never do it but, even by my description my depression mightnt seem that bad but it really is, if it goes on I just dont know how I will keep myself alive. I'm scared I'll kill myself.
I took a test online at depressedtest.com and I scored either high, extremely high, or moderate-high in all of them. it said below that even though its not a proper screening test that if you score high in at least one that you shoudl seek help.
I know its just an internet test but Ido need to talk to someone. I dont want to go to my GP as it costs about 60 euro just to go in and get advice and I dont want to tell my mam just yet(she'll say its from lack of excercise, which is not true as I go for a walk everyday, I just dont play sport, which she would love me too). Who should I talk to? I'm so lost.

[georgiamay]

:arrow: depression, loss and grief.

I would strongly advise against self diagnosis. If you are truly concerned about having a type of clinical depression, go and see someone, like a doctor. If you can't afford to see a GP, I'm sure there's another way. There are councelling services all over the place you could go to. If they think you have depression, they'll refer you to a psychiatrist so you can get the right help.

I know how you feel about only seeing darkness in the future, but how do you know that? you can't see the future, no one can, so why worry about it, just try and make your future as bright as possible.

And internet tests always seem to use bias and leading questions. And I'm guessing it had "yes" or "no" answer questions? If so, they are completely un reliable.

[Dunce]

Thanks for the advice, and it wasnt really a self diagnosis. I am 98 percent sure I have depression, I've had this for 3 years and everything fits, but dont worry im not going anywhere with it until I talk to someone who knows about it.

[nick]

I've been increasingly depressed over the last few months and it reached a kind of crisis for me around a month ago when I took a friends advice and went to my GP about it. I'm glad I did, he put me on some tablets which have helped a lot. I'm still aware of the things that make me depressed but am coping with it much better. So from my experience I would say its worth the cost of the trip to the doctor if you can manage it.

[hybrid]

Thanks for the advice, and it wasnt really a self diagnosis. I am 98 percent sure I have depression, I've had this for 3 years and everything fits, but dont worry im not going anywhere with it until I talk to someone who knows about it.

That's still Self-Diagnosis.

"...the diagnosis of one's own health problems, usually without direction or assistance from a physician."


Talk to your GP if you think you have Depression. It can seriously fuck up your life.

[judthryn]

as hybrid said taking a test from GP is recommended, as you can't frame out that you having depression or anxiety or whatever it is.. don't just fix up in your mind that you having depression.

[A.J.]

Did you become depressed when you heard you were depressed? Alot of doctors can diagnose something and not always be true (especially with all the money being made off of anti-depressents). You'd be surprised what the mind does when you convince yourself something. Take a little time to evalute how you feel

[Fiction]

Please do not bump threads over 2 months old :locked: