can't remember :(

[Asylum]

so every so often i can't remember. I'll give an example because i can't explain otherwise. Tonight I was talking to my boyfriend about an old Christian camp we worked at. The last day he wore a Marilyn Manson T-shirt, which was a big deal cuz he's viewed as a satanist, and it was agaisnt camp policy. Apparently I I was happy he wore it that day... extatic that he would do something like htat. It was brought up like a month lattter with friends, and I apparently was commenting on it then. Now here's the thing i didn't remeber tonight... I still don't.. like ok i do.. but here's how I see it.. i see not myself.. or myslef and i'm watching it as another person.. like i wasn't there, but i can recall it because i was an observer... i know that makes nooo.... sense... i'm trying to desribe this to the best of my abilities here. I didn't even remeber car pulling with my friend Laura every day. I remeber after he mentioned it but only in bits and pieces. I remeber that camp week bits in pieces, but the week before that i remeber it preciously, i was with Jeanette my best friend, i remeber everythign about that week but the next 2 weeks are foggy and misplaced it seems... This happens to me a lot... what is wrong with me? is this normal?

i shall give another example i was with my ex at the time he and i had a song.. Bright Eyes.. it was a month or so latter after being obsessed with it listening to it non stop then suddenly it's like i never heard of the song before... O_o it made him upset and of course myself. sorry i didn't elaborate more on that ^ i can barely remeber it at all it seems... :(

[Syvelocin]

Well, there we have a bit of the Depersonalization Disorder symptoms again (have you brought it up with your psychiatrist yet?) and your memory description fits my own day-to-day memory. Normal? Not quite. But possible? Of course. There are all sorts of reasons why you could have memory gaps. My memory gaps are caused by DID, though there are still many explanations for bad memory.

How you're explaining it seems like this doesn't always happen, so we'll take the non-genetic course. Of those possibilities, I know that certain drugs can do that to your memory. My mother is on a shit-load of drugs, and she remembers most things, but is very foggy on certain details, and we've always known her memory problems to be caused by the huge amount of pills she's prescribed. I do remember you had been put on more medications recently, so that is my best explanation for it, though that isn't definitely the reason, it's just a suggestion.

(Off-topic: Manson is a Satanist as far as we know though ;) I remember an interview though where he said something about not quite being a Satanist, and not quite being one set religion. I wouldn't be able to cite it though, since I watch probably every interview available to the general public. Fans assume he follows Anton LaVey's Satanism since Anton was a good friend of his, and he does follow a lot of our views.)

[Asylum]

unfortunately i'm not seeing her this week... but when i see her i will. it could be meds, but i just started meds like a month ago... and the memory problem has been happening forever.. unless it could be the result of ADD meds... which i stopped taking a long time ago..
i love watching his interviews lolz. i think i remeber that interview which you mentioned lolz.