crestfallen...

[Abdus Salaam]

It is oh so frustrating when I am unable to maintain a stable disposition. One minute I'm elated and filled with joy, and then shortly after, so downcast that I don't want to leave my room. The cliché "darkness and cold" of my room seem so inviting. I don't want to leave it. My only motivation anymore is my beautiful, caring girlfriend.
I have so many issues (all of which I cannot list at once naturally). I lack the ability to adequately prioritize, leading to the most difficult question I know, "what should I complete first?". I am constantly frustrated and barely think straight, because my anxiety is "off the charts" as a result of my poor prioritization skills. I also am troubled with a disorder called trichotillomania ("trich" for short- pronounced: "trick") (hair pulling- (eyelashes in my case)) which I am nearly one hundred percent convinced is brought on by my anxiety. It is something that I have been plagued with since the end of middle school and it's worse than when I was addicted to chain-smoking cigarettes. I feel like I'm in this vicious cycle that I cannot break free from. I so miss the blackness and chill of my "four walls". I want to sleep it all away.

[Asylum]

is there anything that triggers you to be unstable? Pouring ice cold water can bring you back, it can help.. With your changing moods, try to focus on the moment. For example I am sad... why am I sad? there is nothing to be sad about... what is happening. observe what's around you. Focus on the moment and try to bring yourself back to it. The past is the past.. try to keep it there.. don't think about it.
With your issue, why not get rid of your twizzers. Giving them to your girlfriend can help you. I know of course there areother ways to pull hair. Why not contact your girlfriend hwne you have the urge. I'm always here for you hun. As far as prioritizing. make a rouine. You must do what you have first each day. Say you have math first, the next day, start with that. follow your shcdule to do homework, and that will become routine. You will break free hun. there is hope *huggles* i love you and i'm always here for you <3