im new to this and cutting

[Bufalo]

if anyone is breeded to be a addict and become despressed, its me. my mom side is filled with alcoholics and depression. Then my dad side is filled with addicts. Ive been depressed since 7th grade when my friends started to leave me because i wasnt cool enough. my addiction strated summer of 8th grade going into high school when i got drunk for the first time. the drugs kicked in around sophmore year and ive been running and gunning ever since. i use to live in seattle where most of my depression and addiction started and senior year of high school i moved to anchorage alaska. i walked the halls of dimond high school in alaska alone and depressed not knowing anyone. Until my super senior year when i met a girl named kloie. she introduced me back to the fast life style, but recently ive been out of control and treating her like dirt, so she let me loose. once again im alone and doing nothing with myself except trying to find drugs and using a box cutter on myself.

anything to help??

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

You came to the right place! Were all here to help others and you who are in situations like this and more. You can go to the dug addiction forum and depression and self harm and post about your feelings and ask for advice. My moms side has a history of abuse and some drug abuse my dads side some drug abuse i got the abuse and i started cutting two years ago when i was 16, now im almost 18. I have scars, and i always relapse, instead of cutting, take a cold shower-watch scary or funny movies-wear a rubber band and snap it-hold an ice cube in ur hand or under ur armpit-clean like a freak-stab at an old pillow or stuffed animal-hope this helps, email me

[closed]

you've come to the right place. even though i'm new i see that all the people here are very supportive... you really have a hard past but it's not the end of the world! you can still change your future, it wasn't written already and it's yours to choose. try to hold on to your friend kloie. she seems to be your anchor to life. i'm sure it's not too late if you talk to her and say you're sorry. if you will ever need anyone to talk to feel free to p.m. me. Good luck :)

[Mike321]

Welcome to VT, you have come to the right place, we're all here to help and there are people who have been in similar situations to you.
I'm sorry to hear about your past, but you can change your future, dont let your self harm get into a cycle or routine beacuse its really hard to break.
Try some of the other methods suggested in here, they still give you the pain, but without the cutting.
Feel free to VM any of us if you need to talk

[Sunshine Girl]

Slow down a bit man.
Have you found someone to trust? Sit with them.. let them just know whats rolling around in your head day after day.
decide which direction do you want to go. just try to find your peace.
I recomend reading. ^_^