Does it count as depression?

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(this will be alittle long so i'm sorry)
i never was the happy type, since i remembered myself i've seen the world as bad, and never actually was innocent. the major thing was two years ago at seventh grade. every day i wanted to die, cut myself, eat alot just to hurt myself. at eight grade (one year ago) it stopped, and now again, i feel the same feelings - failure, like one big black hole that absorbs everything bad and doesn't get any good. and when i think about my problems in an objective way i can't find why, and when i act happily around people i'm afraid to show how really empty and deperate i am. i'm hypocrticly afraid of people call me hypocrite. i feel depressed, by my therapist that i used to go to didn't said that i had it, and i didn't want to worry my parents, so i didn't act to sad... now i don't know if i have depression, or if i just try to define myself without any basis. what do you think?

[Fiction]

We can't make a diagnosis. maybe you should go and see a doctor or a therapist again and explain to them how you feel? It sounds like there was something wrong in your life, weather it was depression or not.

[Art_dude]

Is it clinical depression? maybe, maybe not. I wouldn't be surprised if it is, but I always like to change all possible factors like circumstance, therapy, diet, exercise, etc, before jumping to that conclusion.

It sounds like you have some pretty rough emotions that don't necessarily go away with as you said, objective reasoning. This could just be pessimistic thinking that you've been reinforcing for many years, or it could be depression. Unless you've had extended periods of these mood swings of deep depression for say a month or longer, I wouldn't say depression right away.

[georgiamay]

No one here can diagnose you. All I can do is suggest that maybe you see a doctor, and if it is depression, they'll talk to through and, and help you, or they'll refer you to a coucellor or something. Even if it isn't depression, it sounds like you have some problems in your life that need sorting out, and until you do that, these feelings won't go away.