Feel like a slut

[Mattyboy2]

I did a bad thing, I know it was bad and dirty but I think i enjoyed it:

Me and my best mate met up with his friends who are all like 16/17 and started drinking by a park. After a while he left to play football but I don't like it and got really drunk with these guys by the park.

Don't get me wrong i like sex but this time it was different, I was basically a ragdoll, a toy. First two then another one joined in and just used me :( I kinda enjoyed it but i look back and think OMG that's disgusting.

I don't wanna say i was abused cuz that would be wrong, but i'm not sure i wanted all of it. I wanted sex with one guy but then found myself sucking god knows what :(

I feel so bad, what do i do now? I feel so dirty and i can't get clean. I'm disgusting.

[nick]

Depends how you look at it, but you have a group of older boys getting you drunk and then having sex with you, its kind of close to a rape situation and if you wanted to you could get them into very serious trouble over it.

You cant change whats past, no point in thinking badly of yourself over it, but you might want to learn from it and not get drunk in a situation like that again so that you retain more control.

[Mattyboy2]

Thanks, i guess i can't change it can I? I can't believe my friend left me with them as well, he must have known what they were like, and that I was wasted

[PJay]

Well ok so it sounds as though you might have been stupid if you werent doing safe sex, but hopefully you'll be ok. I'd get yourself down the clinic for a check up and put your mind at rest if that is what is worrying you.
The rest of it ... well tbh if you are horny and enjoyed it, i'd just go with it. Next time you are in that situation dont get so drunk as nick says but also if you did want to fool around you'd probably enjoy it a lot more i would think. Better yet, since you mentioned twice you think you enjoyed it, i wonder if you should get yourself a boyfriend?

[Nicky97]

Wait, you were making out like this was about sex. It's about getting drunk and about your self-image. I've been there, though willingly, and IN CONTROL. So it's not really the same thing at all. You were sucking, you said, right?.

Horny guys are horny guys (god love em - though my age interests are a bit lower). It does sound like your "friend" knew more about all this than you realize. That would bother me.

You have a right to feel slutty about getting drunk with strangers. But not about getting used, that anyone should have been able to see coming if things were all right and proper.

Let it go, don't beat yourself up over it, and either look forward to a lot more of the same or get you act together. This really isn't about sex.