So, What IS this I feel?

[Errr]

Hey guys,
Okay, so I'm starting to question my sexuality. Now I want to be straight. I have nothing against gays or Lesbians, In fact, I support them. For me though I wish to be straight. I'm very confused though because I'm attracted to guys much more, But i have no emotional connection to them. Then as for girls, I'm still attracted to them, not as much as guys, but I have a really strong emotional attachment to them. When I see my future, I see a bride, and kids. I want that. My feelings for guys confuses me to no end. I'm getting to the point I might be fine with being Bi, but if I was gay..oh boy, I could say goodbye to my family. It's unfourtunate they are like that, but thats how it is. :( My family has always suspected me to be gay though, since I was young even. I am not sure if that has something to do with it? Any advice or help on this would be fantastic. :)

[nick]

I used to feel exactly the same as you have described, and I really wanted the wife & kids future, but in the end I had to face up to the fact that it would be living a lie for me to go down that path. Being gay definitely isnt a choice for me, its just how I am. It sounds like you need more time to figure out your own sexuality, all I would say is dont fight it, just be yourself and dont worry too much about the labels.

[Errr]

Thank you, I think thats what I'm doing, Fighting it. I shouldn't. Who knows..=/