Xanax

[deadpie]

I've wasted more then a 100 dollars this month on it. I'm definitely addicted to it and building a tolerance. I tried to go a day without it but I ended up vomiting and getting the worst headache I've ever had. I don't plan on going to rehab or any of that shit. I don't even know if I'm ready to stop. It's like I have to be bar'd out nonstop no matter what now. The other issue is money - trying to always pay for it. I do know a way that works to get the money, but it's not particularly a smart thing to be doing.

I fucking hate this shit. I don't want to deal with my shit. There's never a good fucking option ever. It's a repeating cycle. I always end up getting hooked on some other drug and if I try to stop all the fucking shit from my childhood starts coming up. I don't want to look at that anymore. It's always in front of my fucking face when I'm sober.

[welcome_to_chaos]

the only way to finnaly get rid of all that stuff from your childhood is to face it. it may seem very painful but you can do it. you need to do it. the longer u wait the worse its going to get. and as for the drugs you really should try to get sober. none of ur friends want you dead from a drug overdose trust me. try and stop. but if you cant go a day without it try limiting it down every day and gradually stepping down from it. these kind of things arent good to quit cold turkey as im sure uve already discovered. but its for the better that you stop this before you destory yourself. the road if you choose to quit will be long and tedious but if you hnave enough willpower you can do it. :)

[missSuzi]

Yeah, don't go cold turkey.
Not good to do that with benzos.

[smalltowngirl9189]

Deadpie-
I use to be hooked on Xanex, Naproxan, Paxil, Codeine, and Morphine. Trust me on this I'm three years clean after four years of being hooked I built up such a tolenrance for Xanex I was taking almost thirteen 500mg pills a day. Finally, when my sister had her kid and I was babysitting all the time one day he ran out into the street and I realized that I couldn't react because of the medication, I just started crying and I've been clean since. It's a very good thing I stopped though because Xanex builds up in your system so does Prozac, Celexa, Paxil, Cipralex, Cymbalta, Ultram, Codeine, Tylox, and Naproxan which means that when you take the medication over a period of time it keeps building up and I was close to a blood clot because of that. The reason I was on it was because of my childhood too but honestly you have three choices....
1) Face everything while being on medication, over react, and other shit
2) End up dying from the medication abuse
3) Come clean and face everything, with friends standing there helping you through everything life throws at you.

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