I don't understand?

[CheeryFace]

When I need to, I take my belt and whip my legs until I don't even want to stand on them. (Too vain to do something that will scar) It is a good feeling and I need that pain. But why is it when the bruises form I hate the pain that comes from them?

I can't stand dull aching pain. I hate it. I only hold my breath when I've done something really bad because when my chest convulses (you know, right before it gets easy) that is the worst feeling in the world.

How can I use that sharp stinging penetrating pain but I cringe at the dull pain? I don't understand. When I forget and cross my legs I almost want to harm in order to mask the dull pain?

[tombstone]

I think this has something to do with the difference in how your body deals with dull pain as oppose to sharp intense pain. When you feel pain your body releases serotonin, which makes you feel pleasure. Perhaps not as much or none as all is released when pressing on bruises occur. It could also be your not in as much control when feeling that pain.

[georgiamay]

Personally, I think it's got something to do with control. Most people find this I think. Enjoying the pain the inflict, but hating the dull aching afterwards. It seems that the idea that you are in control of the pain you're causing is comforting, but you can't stand any form of pain6. outside of your control.

There's nothing wrong with you, everyone on this forum understands what you're going through, and we've been there ourselves. We're all here to support you if you ever need any.

You can PM me anytime if you need to talk hun, I'm always here :hug3:

[starbrite5]

I feel quite the same way. It's like, I crave the controlled pain of self-harm, which makes it seem as though I have a high pain tolerance. But in all other circumstances, my pain tolerance is so low that friendly punches in the shoulder make me howl in pain. I don't really understand it either, but like I said, I feel the same way.

Also, welcome to VT! I hope you find the support you're looking for. Feel free to PM me.

[CheeryFace]

Wow. This is kind of weird. I've never had anyone understand before. I don't know what I was expecting since this is a self harm forum, lol. I just woke up feeling like I wanted to run in front of a car but just knowing someone else it out there really helps. I'm going to leave the house without 'taking care of it'. Ug this will be a long day...

Have you ever told anyone and what was their reaction? For real, even if it was bad, what did they say/do?

[UnknownError]

Why has she been banned? ;O

[Syvelocin]

Why has she been banned? ;O

Yeah, really :O I can't seem to find any explanation.

[georgiamay]

Why has she been banned? ;O

Yeah, really :O I can't seem to find any explanation.

These posts have nothing to do with the original post. Please refrain from posting unless it is relevant.

Anyway, I'm going to lock this thread as the OP is banned and won't be able to see the replies. :locked: