First times in over a year

[mranderson]

this is the first time ive givin myself self harm in years, this is the first time ive used a knife(just used nails before) but it felt so soothing.I have such a llow self esteem and i do consider myself depressed, but when i cut, eveyrthing just seems to go away, i forget im fat, i forget about family issues. But idk what to do, ive been caught before but now i feel like i have to...ive even thought of cuting my neck just to hide it, i promised my best friend that i wouldnt do it agian( he saw the cuts today) but idk if i can keep the promise. just thought ide share how ive felt.

[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

dont make a promise you cant keep, instead of cutting watch a horror movie or splash ice cold water on ur face.

[tombstone]

When you feel down and need a way to release your anger / sadness try running, just as hard and fast as you can. it will tire you right out, as well as give you some exercise.

http://www.siriusproject.org/alternatives.htm

that is a list of alternatives you can do to self harm, such as cold shower, holding ice cubes etc. Its well worth giving it a look.

edit: You may also want to consider the scars, when your older and have stopped harming they will still be there, upsetting the people close to you.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

U said u just started again? If u dont stop while u can, its going to pull u back into that trap. And tombstone is right, what about when ur older and have scars? It already breaks my heart to have to hear " Auntie how u get that ouch?" Idunno if its listed in the link tombstone gave u put snapping a band againest ur wrists sometimes helps or biting really hard into ginger root.

[Mike321]

I'm sorry to hear that you cut again, but like the other said, try some of the other methods, it will be worth giving them a try even if you dont think they'll work
I know its hard, but try and stop before you get pulled back into it again