PJay
October 3rd, 2010, 05:32 AM
Ok so just wanted to get this off my chest a bit, sorry if it comes of like i'm whining, if it does just ignore and move along.
So basically i just dont seem to be having any luck finding the right guy in the right place at the right time in each of our lives.
So i met a guy online a while ago who turned out to be way older than me but apart from that was really nice and I thought i was in love. Really hurt, plus parents freaked ... i still think if hed been my age like he said he was it would have worked and it p*&*s me off that there isn't a pill or something to make people younger lol (yeah i know that sounds stupid).
Now i've got 3 guys in my life, one of them is just perfect but is an online friend and its never going to happen irl because of distance (which makes me really sad and grrrr its so ironic), and the other two are at my school but its kind of messed up. One of them is a year below, and i said something nice to give him a boost after i heard a conversation where he sounded down about his bod and now I think he's hitting on me, but he's way to immature for me (and i'm probably making more of it than it is). And the last guy, new at my school this year I really fancy so much but is hanging with a bad crowd and i dont know whether i'd like him as a person anyway, and i feel really shallow to be crushing on someone just cos of their looks.
So all of this is messing with my head, and sometimes i'm laying in bed and i feel so sad that all my dreams are just fake i feel like i could cry, and i'm normally a really happy person. I just want someone to love but am I being too fussy wanting good looks AND brains and personality AND actually living near me in space and time (too much dr who lol) ??? Also I want a guy to love not just sex, but i am really horny so i know i'd be tempted to fool around with the first guy i can manage it with, but then i'd probably reget it.
So do i lower my standards? Isn't that really shallow if I do that and kind of wait for something better to come along?
So basically i just dont seem to be having any luck finding the right guy in the right place at the right time in each of our lives.
So i met a guy online a while ago who turned out to be way older than me but apart from that was really nice and I thought i was in love. Really hurt, plus parents freaked ... i still think if hed been my age like he said he was it would have worked and it p*&*s me off that there isn't a pill or something to make people younger lol (yeah i know that sounds stupid).
Now i've got 3 guys in my life, one of them is just perfect but is an online friend and its never going to happen irl because of distance (which makes me really sad and grrrr its so ironic), and the other two are at my school but its kind of messed up. One of them is a year below, and i said something nice to give him a boost after i heard a conversation where he sounded down about his bod and now I think he's hitting on me, but he's way to immature for me (and i'm probably making more of it than it is). And the last guy, new at my school this year I really fancy so much but is hanging with a bad crowd and i dont know whether i'd like him as a person anyway, and i feel really shallow to be crushing on someone just cos of their looks.
So all of this is messing with my head, and sometimes i'm laying in bed and i feel so sad that all my dreams are just fake i feel like i could cry, and i'm normally a really happy person. I just want someone to love but am I being too fussy wanting good looks AND brains and personality AND actually living near me in space and time (too much dr who lol) ??? Also I want a guy to love not just sex, but i am really horny so i know i'd be tempted to fool around with the first guy i can manage it with, but then i'd probably reget it.
So do i lower my standards? Isn't that really shallow if I do that and kind of wait for something better to come along?