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[LiTTleBrok3nDolly]

I feel:
eyes heavy
head foggy
stomach cramping bcs of stress
upset
angry
numb
tired
worn-out

why?
I dont wanna go into detail, part of it is in my other personal posts and the new stuff just anything and everything dealing with stress and anxiety. Cleaning my room every single day. Trying to get used to talking to people ive known for 4 years. Hating my body and buying clothes that fit it. So much back pain that it feels like i cant breath, and my shoulders are so numb when i do feel the pain i would rather have a migraine. Felling like a pest to my mother when she says im not. I dont wanna go on.

This doesnt sound bad i know, but if you have my stress level everyday, i dont know everyones different. From 1 to 10, my stress level is ALWAYS and ONLY at a 2/3 or a 8/9. 2/3 when i watching a movie or comedy or at a friends house just chilling and being comfy on a recliner with soft blanket and tasty drink. 8/9 everywhere else, cleaning, going to my meetings, shopping, being outside. Just living. Its like i cant breathe cause im so stressed out, im surprised my face isnt covered in zits. Im surprised i havent thrown up bcs im so stressed and anxious.

I wonder why i am still living, i dont see a bright future. I feel theres no hope, yet i live day in and day out waiting for nothing? Something to happen that is so good that i feel like i wanna live. Or at east should live. Trying to many sleeping pills, none work, i just want sleep. =.(.. I just wanna be a happy teen who enjoys shopping and hanging out with friends. Why cant i feel better? I dont know, i try but my mind is getting tired of trying.

Thank you for those who have been willing to comment on this venting complaining post. Lots to read, i just needed to vent on VT for some time just didnt know how to put it.

You can say why i shouldn't be a baby, or some sort of encouragement. Idk, thank you for letting me waste your time.

~Selina~

[Fiction]

Your not wasting out time, we're here to help.
Things can get better, you just have to try and get out of the stressed mentality, i know this is hard but it isn't impossible. Maybe make plans to do the things that relax you, so that when you are feeling stressed youc an always think ahead and look forward to these times. You can vm or pm me whenever you want :)

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I know it can be hard when everything is stressful and hardly anything is ever calm. Sometimes u just need to stop. Just drop what ur doing, sit and watch ur fav show/movie have ur fav drink and chill. I know its waaay easier said then done but the more "ME" time u have the less " Everything else" stress u`ll get. Maybe theres a reason ur so stressed, like an undetected root cause that makes everything else more stressful then it should be. If u could find that it might make things alittle better. U could always find breathing exercises might bring down the level of stess in day to day life.