I need help please

[devilsheep]

Ok so basically for the past week all i've been thinking about is how I'm going to die eventually and it's totally taken out any sort of ambition in me at all. It's like i've never realised that I was going to die before and now all of a sudden its just a huge harsh reality and it's completely taking over my thoughts.

It's just making life in general seem pointless like I have thoughts like whats the point of doing this if im just going to die and im honestly not really contemplating suicide but it doesn't really seem as stupid of an idea as before.

I think i'm thinking like this because in the summer I went a whole month and a half of smoking weed pretty steadily like every night or no more than 1 night off for the majority of the summer and it really changed the way i thought about things. A couple times when I was high death came into mind and it just hit me harder than ever before, and ever since then I think about it the same way. It's just constantly on my mind and I don't feel like myself anymore..

I'm honestly really scared last night in bed I was just having a mini panic attack because of the mindset ive been in lately.

Life just feels completely different with this new perspective I have and I fucking hate it. It's not all the time actually but when Im alone to my thoughts it starts creeping up again and I can't stop it.

Anyways I havent posted on here in a while but hey I need some mental support so i just thoght Id get it out here.

Thanks

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[Fiction]

You need to set out goals in life, set out what you want to acheive. Even if life is pointless we may as well enjoy it as much as we can while we are here right? As you said we are all going to die, but if we didn't we'd all get bored of life. Think of dying as something that gives us a purpose. We must die in order to live. Basically without death life would be endless, pointless. Also you are young, death is a long way off for you, you have so mnay things left to do in your life before then.
Maybe lay off the weed for a bit or even forever it obviously isn't helping you in any way.
VM me anytime if you would like to talk :)

[devilsheep]

You need to set out goals in life, set out what you want to acheive. Even if life is pointless we may as well enjoy it as much as we can while we are here right? As you said we are all going to die, but if we didn't we'd all get bored of life. Think of dying as something that gives us a purpose. We must die in order to live. Basically without death life would be endless, pointless. Also you are young, death is a long way off for you, you have so mnay things left to do in your life before then.
Maybe lay off the weed for a bit or even forever it obviously isn't helping you in any way.
VM me anytime if you would like to talk :)

Yeah i realised most of those points over the past couple days i've gotten better im no longer scared of it the biggest point was how its so far away like im only 17 and i feel like ive been alive forever but ive barely lived theres so much more for me to experience and by the time im old i'll be ready to die i have faith in that because by then theres no more progression in life you kinda just await your death and theres nothing you can do about it so whatever. Thanks for your post though

[Fiction]

It's no problem :) and i'd still advise that you lay off the weed a bit.

[devilsheep]

It's no problem :) and i'd still advise that you lay off the weed a bit.

Yeah I havent even thought about touching it in over a month now and i know deep down that I should probably lay off for a couple months just sort of hard when all my friends smoke it still occasionally and I still do wanna smoke with them every month or two for a special occasion I think i might try again late this month watch a movie eat some food see how it goes if i get freaked out then Ill stop.

[DarkHorses]

It's easy to look at life with a negative perspective. You're born, you live, you die. When I'm depressed sometimes it's hard to see it any other way. But at the same time it's hard to believe that that's all there is to it. That the world was created for no reason whatsoever, that everything is pretty much meaningless. But even if that is the case, my goal is to give my life meaning.

Find something you're passionate about. For me, it's writing. Find something you love to do, and that gives your life more meaning. There's more to life than living and dying, but not if you look at things with a negative perspective. Life is what you make it. It's up to you make it worthwhile.