Bottled-up emotions

[cristian123]

I have alot of bottled up emotions.
I'm a 15 bisexual boy who can't come out of the closet (I wish I could) so many family drama/problems at home. I always feel empty inside and I feel that no one cares.
My parents always want me to change. To stop acting gay.

I have so many emotions that I can't even express.

Could this affect me in any way?
I'm sorry if I put this in the wrong place, I just wanted to know.

[DrkZ90]

From my own experience, it isn't good to bottle everything up, sooner or later it will end up simply blowing up one way or another, and that will just be worse

Do you have anyone that you're close to? A best friend, I think, is the best person to trust with this, idk...

[Charleigh]

you need to know who you are inside. what other people think, to hell with it. you are who you are and nobody can change it. what i done is i wrote a letter, it was about what i would say to the world. you dont need to show anybody the letter, but its a way of directing all of your emotions to a way of expressing it. bottling everything up can lead to other things, trust me. if you like drawing, draw how you feel, put everything in your head, onto the peice of paper. if you need anything just PM me :) x

[cristian123]

Charliegirl Thanks And you too Drkz90 :)
I know it's bad but I had no idea how to express my feelings and to who.

[PJay]

Dude, what is "acting gay" ? I'm gay, and people who dont know me are surprised even after i've blatantly made comments about a guy they think i'm joking. Just be you, don't act anything. "Act" sounds fake, if you know what i mean, and your parents my not like that fakeness, not the gay part.
So if you have a softer side (doesn't have to mean feminine) that is a fact of your personality and imho a good thing, just use it and be it nm what anyone else says. If your parents think you should be all macho and stuff then thats bs on their part.

Also all parents have ideas of what their kids should be and want to live life out through them and all sorts of screwed up shit. Your job is to be you, and ignore all that sh*t.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

As a bisexual who has only resently came out, I get where ur comming from. Its not good to keep what ur feeling inside all the time. If ur not out of the closet and u have sexual orientation issues u could always talk to an online source such as VT or a phone service. U are who u are and should totally be proud. Love has no gender and people who cannot except that are narrowminded idioits. I dont know how someone could act "gay" but im asuming its the stereotypical flamboyant kind of person.Ur parents shouldnt want u to change. If this is bothering u, maybe when ur ready,u should confront them about it. If u cant express ur emotions openly for whatever reason, why not keep a journal or a sketchbook? If u ever wanna contact me, its totally kool.

[closed]

botteling up emotions is just hard and unnecesary. if you need anyone to talk to feel free to p.m. me :)