Immortal Love
September 25th, 2010, 12:31 AM
Okay, here's one I havn't told many. I pick at my arms, legs, face, neck, back, and chest. I usually do it to the point where you can see my nail marks, and there are large welts covering the skin, almost looking like bee stings. I also pick at scabs, and sometimes don't let them heal for months. I even to far enough to scratch at scars, and somehow manage to make them wounds again.
And you see, It dosn't even bother me. I can make myself bleed like that and act like i just rubbed my skin. It dosn't even really hurt anymore. I have a feeling that this isn't normal,and because of how heavly messed up my arms look, I always wear long sleeves. Too afraid of people asking. This is also do to all the abnormal looking scars from my past cutting incidents.
Now on to the question. Why am I doing this? What is it, and why can't I stop after 5 years.
And you see, It dosn't even bother me. I can make myself bleed like that and act like i just rubbed my skin. It dosn't even really hurt anymore. I have a feeling that this isn't normal,and because of how heavly messed up my arms look, I always wear long sleeves. Too afraid of people asking. This is also do to all the abnormal looking scars from my past cutting incidents.
Now on to the question. Why am I doing this? What is it, and why can't I stop after 5 years.