Cant take much more.

[Church]

Everything in my life seems to be going downhill, for last 9 months I've been dealing with depression from stress, rejection, break ups, pressure from school, pressure from friends, I been doing drugs etc.

Everything seems to be catching up to me and I dont know how to handle it. Just not sure what to do anymore. Nothing I do seems to help, all I can do now is just slap on a smile and deal with everyday life and break down when I get home

Edited for more info: I always feel like I'm not accepted, I feel hated and alone, dont belong. I feel like theirs no hope of things getting better for me, I cant get a working relationship going. I have suicidal thoughts, want to be left alone for long periods of time and dont want to do anything nor do I care about anythng

[PJay]

Don't know what to say without more details other than hang in there. I know you get a lot of people disagreeing with you in some threads and I've bin one of them, but like I respect the fact you are willing to discuss things when that happens which tells me you have an open mind more than many.
Be strong.
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Not being accepted sucks and i can really relate to that. I've had a phase of that but pretty much now back to normal, but some people dont like "different" and i guess that is more true in some parts of the world than others. Seems to me you have a choice, either be yourself and be true to yourself or become a sheep. I dont know what difference it might be for you but its just as likely to be a strength you should be proud of as a weakness you could try to improve, or just a thing you can't change like being gay or having red hair. If you think it is a weakness that you could work on then there's something you can improve and maybe stuff will start coming together for you. If its the other stuff then how you deal with closed minded idiots is kind of tricky depending on how much effort you think they are worth.

It seems a lot of teenage guys are well moody and i think its hormones makes you feel stuff that isn't always logical and messes with your head. I've not had a relationship so at least you have some idea, for me i'm still too scared to make the first step so i guess the point is you have some wisdom about that thing which puts you a step ahead for next time.

The worlds full of arseholes and crappiness, and sometimes it just makes it kind of hard to see the nice stuff or notice the good hearted people I think. Plus I think there are more stupid people than evil people but its hard to tell the difference sometimes.

Thats my 2p anyway - course i'm british, so i probably could have just said "chin up old boy" which would have been quicker heh.