I've got nothing.

[Jean Poutine]

I faced the hard truth today : I have nothing.

I have no friends who'll stand up to me, no girlfriend to share experiences with, a false sense of pseudo self-reliance, and hell, I don't even have self esteem, only vanity that is vain in itself.

I have no future, since I have no talents. I can't draw, I can't sing, I can't play an instrument, I can't speak, I can't write, I can't cook. I'm not a leader, nor am I a follower. Now that I've learned everything that captivated me, now that I know everything about what interests me, I don't have any purpose in life anymore. The only thing I'm good for is a walking encyclopedia, like those robots you see in movies. That's how I feel like : a robot, engineered by its own blind convictions, a servant that doesn't want to be.

My mom wants me to stay in school, what good is it? I'm racking 90s (my average this semester is around 88 ), I don't even study at home, or work in class. School, a welcome challenge? How can it be a challenge when everything there is is mind-numbingly easy?

Yes, I do want to stay in school too, the only thing I live for is knowledge. That's the only thing that keeps me breathing. Too bad the path I've chosen forces me to give up tons of things, such as social contacts and love. Is it worth it? Can I still go back? Yes, and no. I think it is too late for me to switch ways.

I know things that escapes most people's grasp. Jolly, I know every country's capital by heart, and can be quizzed so. Oh look, I know Grimm's Law by heart too. Big flippin' deal, Tony, nobody gives a damn. I've learned that nobody cares about you unless you're another of these stupid, mindless drones. The same drones I despise, the same ones I love jeering at, the same ones I watch with a mocking eye as they fail their life. Am I not doing the same thing? Wasting my teens and failing my life?

I hardly have a "life". Yeah, I grew up watching Star Trek and Discovery Channel, I grew up playing D&D with equally nerdy lads in a squatted classroom. I sport glasses, of course. Ich kann sprechen 3-4 Sprachen. Not much for sports except running. I maintain good relations with teachers, and I've made bouncing balls in petrochemistry, and I've also once planned to put sodium in water fountains around school, until I remembered how dangerous the fumes were. I know pi to the 40th digit by heart. I bring my graphing calc everywhere, and I love calculating random stuff. The stereotypical nerd.

I'm not sure if I want a life or not. One thing is sure : I feel like giving up everything right now. Life doesn't challenge me. My life is boring. No thrills, hardly any fun. God underestimates my capacities and doesn't know what I'm made of. Hey there God, if You please, send me some more challenging stuff, please?

I need a hug.

[Whisper]

I suppose being the mod of this section if nobody else will post ima have to....jesus...i'm gonna be banned for this..

WAKE THE FUCK UP!
all this poor me i'm so smart, poor me i do GREAT in school without even trying while sooo many teens find it so hard it throws them into a true depression and suicide, poor me i'm gonna get into a great school and have a kickass job, poor me i just got my own great vehicle, poor me i live in a great neighboorhood, poor me i'm french so the Canadian government gives me breaks that they would NEVER give to the same teen that speaks english, poor me i never have to worry about starving to death, poor me i'll never be forced into a child army or watch my parents be executed by malitia!

you have a GREAT life and are full of promise you live in a kickass country where you dont have to be utterly terrified and your a dam child with your whole life ahead of you!
you keep going on like my life is so boring no thrills DUDE your even younger then me! you have your whooooole life ahead of you!

and as far as that I have no talents pitty me then turning around and saying like i can do this and this and this and this blah blah blah -brags uncontrolably-
your obivously great at many things your just to busy pittying yourself to snap out of it

WAKE UP
walk awaaaaay from the light!
honestly

....have a good day

~xX~


edit:
oh...uh :hug:

[Makod]

I hardly have a "life". Yeah, I grew up watching Star Trek and Discovery Channel, I grew up playing D&D with equally nerdy lads in a squatted classroom. I sport glasses, of course. Ich kann sprechen 3-4 Sprachen. Not much for sports except running. I maintain good relations with teachers, and I've made bouncing balls in petrochemistry, and I've also once planned to put sodium in water fountains around school, until I remembered how dangerous the fumes were. I know pi to the 40th digit by heart. I bring my graphing calc everywhere, and I love calculating random stuff. The stereotypical nerd.

Are you insulting my lifestyle? :cry:

For the most-part Whisper is right, your life is great, you're set for the future, stop complaining.

[schrei jess]

:( I know how you feel, ive got no life, maybe a smidge but...the internet is my best friend, and depression...hating myself. I get the "poor me" stuff, unless you are deeply depressed, you cant understand it. I do. You cant just tell someone to snap out of it, stop feeling sorry for yourself...because when you're depressed, feeling sorry is all you've got.

Im here for you!!!

[Whisper]

:( I know how you feel, ive got no life, maybe a smidge but...the internet is my best friend, and depression...hating myself. I get the "poor me" stuff, unless you are deeply depressed, you cant understand it. I do. You cant just tell someone to snap out of it, stop feeling sorry for yourself...because when you're depressed, feeling sorry is all you've got.

Im here for you!!!
Your brand new here
you know nothing about me
don't treat me like i'm some fool
I have an intimate and unique perspective on many things including clinically diagnosed severe depression, suicide, hospitalization, severe self harm and MANY far more interesting and delicate matters

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

He's upset granted but based on this post and previous ones he does not sound depressed just upset and lonley
hes so focused on what he dosent have that he dosent see the many things he does
he wants friends and he wants a girlfriend basically he needs to get out easier said then done but high school helps allot by forcing you to interact
will it be easy? no
but if he wants it badly enough he'll dive into it head first
as for this thread it is a "pitty me"
he dosent need pitty hes got a great life
he needs to snap out of the pitty crap and actually try
does he want to hear this? probly not
does he hate me right now? probly
is it the truth? yes

[schrei jess]

Your brand new here
you know nothing about me
don't treat me like i'm some fool
I have an intimate and unique perspective on many things including clinically diagnosed severe depression, suicide, hospitalization, severe self harm and MANY far more interesting and delicate matters

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

He's upset granted but based on this post and previous ones he does not sound depressed just upset and lonley
hes so focused on what he dosent have that he dosent see the many things he does
he wants friends and he wants a girlfriend basically he needs to get out easier said then done but high school helps allot by forcing you to interact
will it be easy? no
but if he wants it badly enough he'll dive into it head first
as for this thread it is a "pitty me"
he dosent need pitty hes got a great life
he needs to snap out of the pitty crap and actually try
does he want to hear this? probly not
does he hate me right now? probly
is it the truth? yes

Whoa, back off there! yeah Im new and dont know you, but you dont know me either! Never did I say you werent depressed whatever. But I know where he is coming from, and maybe he wants to feel sorry for himself but he was also asking for advice, isnt that what this place is for? HELP?! Yeah, sorry if I want to help someone and let them know that someone understands...Ill try not to do that again -_-

Oh and, you have no idea what his life is like, it could be shit for all you know, so before you say his life is great, find some things out first.

Edit again, everytime I read over your post I see how hypocritical you are! You tell me I dont know you that i shouldnt treat you like a "fool" (and no where did I do that), and that you have such GREAT views on things...well guess what, you dont know shit about me! You dont know anything about my life or what my views are, so stop being a hypocrite for 5 seconds and figure out where other people are coming from!

[Jean Poutine]

I suppose being the mod of this section if nobody else will post ima have to....jesus...i'm gonna be banned for this..

WAKE THE FUCK UP!
all this poor me i'm so smart, poor me i do GREAT in school without even trying while sooo many teens find it so hard it throws them into a true depression and suicide, poor me i'm gonna get into a great school and have a kickass job, poor me i just got my own great vehicle, poor me i live in a great neighboorhood, poor me i'm french so the Canadian government gives me breaks that they would NEVER give to the same teen that speaks english, poor me i never have to worry about starving to death, poor me i'll never be forced into a child army or watch my parents be executed by malitia!

you have a GREAT life and are full of promise you live in a kickass country where you dont have to be utterly terrified and your a dam child with your whole life ahead of you!
you keep going on like my life is so boring no thrills DUDE your even younger then me! you have your whooooole life ahead of you!

and as far as that I have no talents pitty me then turning around and saying like i can do this and this and this and this blah blah blah -brags uncontrolably-
your obivously great at many things your just to busy pittying yourself to snap out of it

WAKE UP
walk awaaaaay from the light!
honestly

....have a good day

~xX~


edit:
oh...uh :hug:
Smartness is not a talent. Anybody with enough determination can do the same. Hell, you don't even have to be determinated : it's natural to know things about what captivates you.

Just because my motivations lie elsewhere than another teen's, just because I chose to not abuse anything, just because I chose a different path doesn't implies I have any special talents. I wasn't born with innate knowledge. Like I said, anybody can do what I did, except nobody's lame enough to do it, wasting their teens in the process.

I won't get a kickass jobnor will I get in a kickass school. My current choice in subjects almost forces me to be a lawyer or a linguist, while what I always wanted to do was manage money or blow stuff up in a lab, which I can't do because the education system is retarded. They gave me normal sciences instead of the upper level ones like I asked (which I had the reqs for), and when I asked to change 2 days after school started, they refused because they were "full". Full, yeah, my butt.

You know why I can't get in a kickass school? Exactly : because they're all anglophone and because my English sucks butt.

What a great future : working as a bailiff part-time while eating peanut butter in a 1 room flat. Not to mention going at Laval University in a crammed Law faculty. Wow, Laval. Kickass school that is. Afterwards I'll have a 1 in 6 chance of scoring a job, if even that.

My car's an Accent 1995, it's nothing great. I didn't inherit a Mustang or anything. I can't even drive it yet.

The Quebec stuff was a low-blow. I don't want to go political here, but I don't want to be treated "differently" than the rest of Canada because of my mother tongue. It's not like I chose it. You know where my loyalties lies? France, not Quebec. The poor little French-Canadians can continue to fight for stuff they do not deserve, I'll stick around and enjoy the carnage when Quebec becomes independant (it will, there's too many blindfolded dummies around ready to vote for basically autodestruction). I consider myself French before Canadian and Canadian before Quebecer.

Besides, did you know Quebec ranked 9th/13rd in terms of riches? Being born in Quebec is more like a curse, not a blessing. The only place that is worst off is Atlantic Canada. If anything YOU should be lucky to be born in Alberta.

As for the rest, piece by piece.

He's upset granted but based on this post and previous ones he does not sound depressed just upset and lonley
How about all 3?

hes so focused on what he dosent have that he dosent see the many things he does
I obviously do a lot wrong if I'm there, complaining.


he wants friends and he wants a girlfriend basically he needs to get out easier said then done but high school helps allot by forcing you to interact
SPD, rocky. I doubt you have any idea of the amount of efforts saying "hi" to someone takes for me. Sometimes, I wish I had a more serious case of SPD, then, I wouldn't be talking about it.

will it be easy? no
Indeed.

but if he wants it badly enough he'll dive into it head first
I have other priorities.

as for this thread it is a "pitty me"
he dosent need pitty hes got a great life
he needs to snap out of the pitty crap and actually try
"Greatness" is relative. Yeah, the poor kid in Africa might envy me, 1st world country inhabitant. But he likely has stuff I don't have, such as friends.

does he want to hear this? probly not
Your opinion, your choice.

does he hate me right now? probly
Nah.

is it the truth? yes
You seem pretty sure about that. "Truth" is also a relative concept.

[Bobby]

Cody calm down, your a mod here and you need to control yourself...and guys listen to him.. he knows more than anyone on this site.

Please, let's not fight.

[schrei jess]

Cody calm down, your a mod here and you need to control yourself...and guys listen to him.. he knows more than anyone on this site.

Please, let's not fight.

That is also an opinion, and I find that debatable. Anyway, Alondite - I understand where you are coming from, please PM me if you want to talk to someone who wont judge you :)

[Jean Poutine]

Okay, stop this. I wasn't seeking anything else other than typing what I had to say. It wouldn't have bothered me if this got 0 answers, not in the least. If you want to fight, do it elsewhere.

At least you have a car. You are very unappreciative. You worry about things you dont have. You dont even need a car. Be glad that you have a roof over your head and you have food in the kitchen. You dont realize how fortonate you are.
I wasn't pointing out that my car is nub and could be better, I was pointing out that it's not a "great vehicle" like the guy said, that it's perfectly normal, and everyday stuff.

Did I ever say I wasn't bent on humanism? No? Okay.

I am not bent on humanism.

You know, calling one's life "better" or "worse" is again a relative concept. Did you know the people of Vanuatu were the happiest in the world? Yet Vanuatu is a dirt-poor little island lost in the Pacific. They're not having it better than most Americans, but they're certainly happier. Most of them just farm or fish. I bet many of them live in slums. Yet, they rank 1st.

http://www.happyplanetindex.org/list.htm

Now, stop argueing and let the topic die, plzkthx.