Help!!!!!!!!

[Asylum]

ok.. so i'm in my room, i'm very anxious.. and im seeing and hearing thigns.. the shadow creatures.. i see them everywhere.. they are closign in on me.. they want to hurt m.. i odn't want them to hurt me.. :'( please someone just help me make them go away, obviously they are not real, buti see them, i hear them.. help... please

[Art_dude]

I'm no psychiatrist, and I certainly can't prescribe you medication: I can only recommend you seek professional help. How long have you been having these hallucinations? When did they start? Are they consistent? Do they pertain to your room or beyond?

[Asylum]

Earliest memory of the hallucinations was 3rd grade. Whenever i get really anxious and numb i hear and see things that aren't there. This happens beyound my room. thank you for your help.

[Syvelocin]

I've had some pretty tough nights in the past with hallucinations. Do you live with anybody? I'd recommend getting out of your room, as I'm for some reason much more paranoid in my room than when I'm in larger, open areas. Also, having someone with you does wonders.

I would stay away from the TV and computer though. The dissociative state that can be caused by exposure to those sort of things can sometimes up your paranoia and hallucinations by a great deal.

I like to make a cup of tea, put on some soothing yet loud music on my headphones, and shut my eyes as tight as possible.

[Asylum]

I live with my parents nd my sister, but i'm not allowed to be outsie my room after 10. All ocmmunication devices like cellphone and computer are usually taken away by 10, but they forgot my computer :) everyone is usally asleep by 9:30 at my house, besides me... so i'm alone. I was on the computer that night talking to my boyfriend who was calming me down, which helped me a lot. I really can't thank him enough for staying up with me to make sure i dind't do anything stupid by hurting myself..
Unfortunatey if my computer is not available i can not listen to soothing music because my ipod is broken :( the only CD i have is metalish. I have a fear of not being able to hear something coming at me or seeing something get me, so if i'm not tired my eyes are 100% looking around the room. unless i'm sort of tired, then i'll be able to tuck in the blankets all around the bed so that nothing can grab me, then i'll turn off the light, and go under the covers, and retuck anything that's been untucked. Then close my eyes. But if this happens i wont' go out from under my covers because i'll be paranoid something is beside me waiting for me to come out of my covers so that is why i don't do that when i'm not tired..
Thank you for your help hun :)

[Syvelocin]

Do your parents know you experience this? When I was living with my mom, she was pretty understanding about it and would even let me stay home from school the next day to catch up on my sleep. I would believe if they understood that you were going through this that they might let you come out of your room to get some reassurance at least.

Do you have a facebook or some way to communicate with friends over the internet? That might also work. Guys can work wonders when your upset, so that's great that you have him.

What my fiancé has been doing recently is sitting up with me and talking me through it. "How often, when you hallucinate, do they actually get you? How often are they actually there?" Which I reply with a hesitant "Never" and I eventually calm down.

It's a struggle. Have you ever tried anti-psychotics? They put me on them in the hospital and I didn't have even one visual hallucination.

[Asylum]

no they don't.. at least i don't think so.. my psycologist may have told them, but that i am not sure of. my parents are not understanding at all.. i think they might get angry if they knew.. and try to send me to an institution.

yes i have a facebook. They really are :)

thats good that you have your fiance :)
Nope, i just started anxiety meds. Soon to be on ADD/ADHD meds again which will make anxiety even worse..
i was thinking i should probably tell my psych about this... i won't get locked up for telling her about my hallucination.. rihgt? :(

[Syvelocin]

Definitely not. The only time that I've seen minors forced into a psych hospital is if a parent calls an ambulence on you for psychiatric reasons, or if you're trying to kill yourself currently. Otherwise, you pretty much have say in it.

I would definitely tell them. It seems that you're really struggling with the hallucinations, and really the only way it could get better is through therapy and meds.

[Asylum]

thanx Rith. seriously you've helped me so much! i can't thank you enough :)

[Syvelocin]

Aww, your welcome hun :) It pleases me that I've been able to help you so much ^_^

[Asylum]

so i told my psycologist... and she told my parents :( now i can no loner go away to college... that means i can't escape the hostile environment at home. she wants me to leave school to do a home and hospital program.. which is homeschooling basically.. but i never leave the house :/... and mre meds... O_o i'll be a zombie on meds.. i really wishi dind't tell her. parents are upset, and they think i'm psycho... i just feel more miserable then ever now..

[Syvelocin]

Aww, I'm sorry hun. Sometimes these things can happen.

Did you try to talk to your parents? I think you should have a discussion with them, to explain that many people have hallucinations, and you're definitely not psycho. You have to tell them that you need their support, as your parents, they need to be there for you. Wear your heart on your sleeve. I would also express that the school situation wouldn't be in your best interests (depending how you feel. Though you seem upset about it)

Also, you can refuse meds, if it bothers you so much. You have the right to choose what goes into your body, no one can force you to take meds (except for psych hospitals, it would be wise to take them there...)

I don't know how society is where you live, and I can't guess. I'm curious to why you won't be able to leave? Are they paying for it? And can you move out at 18?

Next time you see your psychologist, you might want to ask why she told them. As a mental health professional, they must keep what you say to them confidential unless it immediately endangers your life. What she did breached your trust in her, and that sort of thing should not be in the relationship between a patient and mental health professional. You have to be able to trust these people with your life, and put full faith in them eventually. If you can't do that, I really see no reason to see a person you don't trust.

I'm very sorry that things turned out this way hun. :hug: