CharcoalSketcher1993
September 20th, 2010, 12:28 AM
I feel like i'm going crazy; there's this voice in my head that won't shut up, it's telling me the truth. I started cutting last year after being sexually abused for months and what with home stuff and then i got better, but lately i've been purging for the last month or so and cutting again, this voice in my head won't shut up it keep saying how pathetic and stupid and worthless i am whenever i delude myself and feel happy i hear it, and when i'm feeling bad it gets even louder. i can get rid of it whenever i do something that makes me feel good, or ifi ask for help especially when i'm feeling bad it's there, and i have to punish myself for aksing for help. I'm so sick of dragging other people into my shit and being such a stupid little piece of shit who can't harden the eff up bu this voice won't go away... i thinki am crazy? I can't listen to it any more i'm so tired of wearing my mask and i'm running out of options. I've attempted suicide four times in the past but they didn't work, i often feel like doing it again but i can't do that to the person who found out about my attempts and has talked me through some stuff, but i don't know, i don't know what to do..