Dunce
September 19th, 2010, 03:20 PM
Ok right, long story short I'm 17, used to be straight, then was gay, but as soon as i accepted that i may like girls I went off them... im confused now
I had a little crush on my friend, who is a girl. It was nothing huge but feelings are definitely there(I miss her so much :/). But you see, I did definitely go off girls, I don't like them as much as I used to and rarely have crushes. Though, I'd have feelings for a girl before I'd have feelings for a boy. And i'm more physically attracted to them. I felt like I could have real feelings for a girl but not a boy.
But recently, I got a boyfriend. Don't worry, I'm not leading him on, I do like him... its just that I feel like I'll never really love him... like, the girl crush I had(or have) is a good friend of mine, and when she texts me I find myself re-reading them and smiling when she leaves x's. When he first left x's I found that I didnt care, then I realised that I just have to let myself like him, and to my surprise it worked, and I actually do like him a whole lot more now. but when I let myself like him I noticed my personality kind of changed, I'm not as close and crazy with my friend now, and find that I'm not caring if she leaves x's :(
I feel like I have to choose between a friend meaning alot to me or having real feelings for my boyfriend. :O
Am I bisexual or am I just falling for whatever is closest to me?
I had a little crush on my friend, who is a girl. It was nothing huge but feelings are definitely there(I miss her so much :/). But you see, I did definitely go off girls, I don't like them as much as I used to and rarely have crushes. Though, I'd have feelings for a girl before I'd have feelings for a boy. And i'm more physically attracted to them. I felt like I could have real feelings for a girl but not a boy.
But recently, I got a boyfriend. Don't worry, I'm not leading him on, I do like him... its just that I feel like I'll never really love him... like, the girl crush I had(or have) is a good friend of mine, and when she texts me I find myself re-reading them and smiling when she leaves x's. When he first left x's I found that I didnt care, then I realised that I just have to let myself like him, and to my surprise it worked, and I actually do like him a whole lot more now. but when I let myself like him I noticed my personality kind of changed, I'm not as close and crazy with my friend now, and find that I'm not caring if she leaves x's :(
I feel like I have to choose between a friend meaning alot to me or having real feelings for my boyfriend. :O
Am I bisexual or am I just falling for whatever is closest to me?