Feeling like falling back

[Weeping]

Well.. I feel like I want to hurt myself kinda.. And I haven't done anything in like 7 months.. I really don't wan't to fall back again.. And when I had eaten me dinner I just went to the bathroom and was so close to just put my fingers down my throat and let it all out.. But instead I like sat there crying on the floor. And all day I've been feelin kinda dying..

Crappy day I guess.

Anyways other days I feel like.. great.. most of the time..
And soon I'm getting to stop goin to me phsycologists (?) :)
And the beginning of next year I'll stop taking me antidepressives..

Actually I feel a little bit relieved now as I've written this..
So maybe I just had to let it out haha?

and ya me english sucks big time ;)

[Obscene Eyedeas]

Well.. I feel like I want to hurt myself kinda.. And I haven't done anything in like 7 months.. I really don't wan't to fall back again..

7 months is an achievement, if you can last that long, you can last another 7 months.

And when I had eaten me dinner I just went to the bathroom and was so close to just put my fingers down my throat and let it all out.. But instead I like sat there crying on the floor. And all day I've been feelin kinda dying..

Just take this one step at a time. one day at a time, if you feel bad try listening to music or do something to take your mind off things.

Crappy day I guess.

Anyways other days I feel like.. great.. most of the time..
And soon I'm getting to stop goin to me phsycologists (?) :)
And the beginning of next year I'll stop taking me antidepressives..

Don't come off your medication if you don't think your ready same for your psychologists. Each day is different just take each day as it comes.

Actually I feel a little bit relieved now as I've written this..
So maybe I just had to let it out haha?

and ya me english sucks big time ;)

Sometimes just talking about these things is enough to help. VT is a place to get help and i hope you find the help you need here.

[Weeping]

Well.. Ty :P
and ya they think I'm ready to stop and I think so to really..
just breaking down today..
but well.. I'm not diagnosed with depression anymore :D
and I really don't wanna fall back so I'll just keep on fighting.

[Asylum]

honey, that is an amazing accomplishment 7 months wohoo!! :D that is truely amazing. keep it up!!

when your having one of those days, try to see your friends, or do somerhting that cheers you up. keep your self distracted so you keep your mind off things.

i am glad you want to keep on fighting :) and am so happy to hear you have improved. and very happy that writing iin VT has helped

keep up the amazing work hun!! <3