i need release..

[Asylum]

i've been abou 5 days sober. and anxiety is really bad... i just need some sort of release. i've been trying really, really hard... but.. i just don't even see the point... i'm just sick of feeling like this, and just want to end it. only thing that is holding me back is my boyfriend, he is understanding about it, but doesn't like it. he has really helped me out lately. and he doens't know how much that means to me, that someone is there for me. he is the only person that cares about me.. and i don't want him to get fed up with putting up with my depressing shit.. that's what basically happened with the last person i was with... they got tired of it.. and left. i don't want to lose him :( and i really really really want release... i can't concentrate, or think of anything else. i've been trying to watch you tube, i've been on facebook talking to people, my mom took my phone away, so i can't talk to anyone.. ther isn't really much i can do. i just need to see blood right now.. i need to feel... :'( and i hate myslf... i'm sick of eople making fun of me, and just releasin it out with a few cuts would be like watching my anxietyand problems flow out of me. i can't pour water on my head right now... cuz then people will ask... so that is not an option and is the onl thing that works in this case. i'm also trying the 5 minute rule, trying to wait it out as long as i can... i feel like i'm going to explode from anxiety tho :( i need help..

[georgiamay]

It might seem like you need it, but we both know that you don't. Now it might seem like you can just make a few little cuts and that will be it, but afterwards you might find yourself saying, "just one more, just one more" and it will go on and on like that. That's what heppened to me last time. I thought i could just do it the once, but then i just started wanting it more and more.

Find another release, like screaming into a pillow, or punching a pillow, and have you tried the rubber band trick? that can be helpful.
You just need to remember that cutting is like an addiction, and there's a good chance you won't be able to limit it to just a few tiny cuts.

You can pull through this. I know you can, because no one needs to cut.

You can PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to. I'm always here :hug3:

[Asylum]

very true... i can never do just one..
i tried what you said.. but it is not the same 'm afraid.. only thing that really works is dumping ice water on my head cuz it's an automatic wake up and i feel again. it's hard to explain but all u can focus on isthe cold. however i an't do that now because i have to go back to school in a half hour..
thank you Georgia :)

[CuriousDestruction]

Don't give up love. You can make it through. We all can. Like Georgia said, it'll just get worse and worse if you start cutting. you know that. Talk to people, let them know what your going through. your friends and loved ones can help you. i know you don't know me that well, but you can PM me if you want to talk, i'll listen.