roughly what my heads riddled with at the moment;

[1_21Guns]

my life is just a delusion itself built upon a fragile world of pathetic broken unstable ground, my health a questionable wreckage, people around me so blind, unable to care. a rollercoaster of self hate, each drop falling more each time. a never ending list of things to do, each day my energy drains that little bit more, my memory confused and shattered. hunger, nothing. i’m sorry, i'm not expecting a reply, i don't even know what there is to say. i don't even know anymore...

[georgiamay]

hun, breathe. Just take a deep breath.

I'm sure the people around you do care, maybe you just need to reach out to them. If you don't tell them how you feel, there's no way they can help. Tell someone in your life, like a friend, or a family member, about what you've just said in this thread, and I'm sure they'll listen, and support you in anyway they can. Just talking is helpful. Even if they don't have any advice to give, just having a shoulder to cry on is sometimes enough to make you feel better.

Can I just ask, I don't get what you mean by:

my memory confused and shattered

Do you mean you can't remember things from your past? Or is it something completely different? Sorry, i'm having a slow day today.

And why not expect a reply? People on this forum care, and we've all gone through similar things, and everyone here can understand at least some of eachothers problems.

People do care about you, natalie :hug:
I'm always here if you ever need to talk about anything. Just drop me a PM if you want to talk :hug3:

[1_21Guns]

hun, breathe. Just take a deep breath.

I'm sure the people around you do care, maybe you just need to reach out to them. If you don't tell them how you feel, there's no way they can help. Tell someone in your life, like a friend, or a family member, about what you've just said in this thread, and I'm sure they'll listen, and support you in anyway they can. Just talking is helpful. Even if they don't have any advice to give, just having a shoulder to cry on is sometimes enough to make you feel better.

i know, i do tell a couple of people, but they either don't know what to say, or i dont say all of it because i dont want people fussing over me. but yeah, i know talking helps, i'm just not much of a talker sometimes...


Do you mean you can't remember things from your past? Or is it something completely different? Sorry, i'm having a slow day today.

And why not expect a reply? People on this forum care, and we've all gone through similar things, and everyone here can understand at least some of eachothers problems.

People do care about you, natalie :hug:
I'm always here if you ever need to talk about anything. Just drop me a PM if you want to talk :hug3:

yeah that is what i meant, the first atleast 8 years of my life i have no idea, then most bits after are gone too, i can only remember little things, everything else is slowly slipping too.

and i'm not sure, thanks hun :hug: