I just keep going.

[Magenta]

My dad knows. We got into a fight yesterday and it just came out. Still... he did not react like expected. He said he trusts me and that the cutting would work itself out. I don't think he understands, even as a police officer who has seen everything. It's not working itself out, it's getting worse. I started with my nails... then my razor... now using a pair of washed nail clippers [content removed - technique].

What is wrong with me?
Help me please... before I do something worse.

I won't go see a therapist. Scared of them...
Also, my hip hurts from about ten minutes ago. I'm so stupid.

[MuzicIz4ever]

Hon, there is NOTHING WRONG with you. Because if there is then there's something wrong with all of us. It's a satisfaction- it's like the forbidden fruit for us - we know. We've been there. And I've asked what was wrong wig myself before too and wondered if I was just a defect.. But then I remembered that I didn't want to die. And that I knowbi wouldn't go to far. Just trust yourself wihthat. If you do want to looses your life or even question it as I once did just remember we all love you - I love you and you are beautiful because your human and there's nothig else anyone can ever ask from you. Maybe right now you contemplate it. Death. Now. But don't. Because there's nothing afte hat if you take it from yourself. Just please hold out. And love life while your living. Then in one year see if you still want to and I hope and pray and KNOW you'll think differently.
But for the SI... I don't know... We're all tying to stop... We bate it... But we love it... It's like a drug.. Yo are NOT alone. And please private message me if you want to still talk. I check many times a day. I love you and good luck.(:
*remember to smile please!!(:*

[welcome_to_chaos]

May i remind you that u cannot pm till 100 posts...but u can email me..but nothings wrong with you...you were just trying to ind your outlet..ur thing that hdlped u forget everything..we all have them..its just a matter of find a less distructive one then si :) email me off my profile if u need to talk..or u could always vm me

[Mike321]

There is nothing wrong with you, your not alone with this.
Its just a way of coping and how you deal with things, but try not to use the nail clippers, because taking chunks out of your skin will take along time to heal.
There are other ways of dealing with your problems, its just a case of finding one that doesnt cause you as much or any harm.
I know its not easy, as with any addiction.
You can drop me an email if you want to talk

[georgiamay]

There's nothing wrong with you, and you aren't stupid.
Maybe talking to your dad a little bit more might help. And seeing a therapist is a good idea; why are you scared of them, may I ask?

Talking things through with someone is a good idea, it gets emotions out. If you ever feel like crying, go somewhere quite, and cry. Crying is good aswell, it helps.
Have you ever tried any distractions? Like snapping an elastic band against your wrist?

I'm here if you ever need to talk, I'll always reply, Just PM me :hug: